...Survivors 0105...

...12 yEaRs...

Jan 4, 2001..

my 1st day of independence... tarikh ni sgt bermakna... permulaan bg sebuah perjalanan... jauh dari mama n papa... 1st week orientation.. byk kenangan... during that time, we got to meet our CS (College Sister) basically form 5 students at that time they were called "Dragon" if.. im not mistaken... then our BS (body sister) the form 2's which we met in our dorm... in our 1st nite there, we were taught about '5 magic words' which were salam, thank you, sorry, please and excuse me... well enough to be applied for the whole years until now.. hehehe... at that time my CS was Amira Sariyati and BS was Wan Nur Hazimah.. owhh yeah another on GP (Good Peer) the one that we got to choose among our 3 former in our Yellow House members (Siti Zawiyah) and mine was Nur Mashitah Ishak...

a month of full unbelievable memories... i joined netball team n track team... too busy with all training.. i was good to know people.. basically at that time in order for us not to get scolded was to memorized all seniors full n nick names, theirs houses, and classes... tooo much rite.. but it was good.. when we noe them we got to actually gain benefits.. y? bcoz when u were called by any seniors especially 4th formers they will asked u their names n house.. hahaha... i got messed up few times n as for punishment i had to buy food at the canteen... but no offense the list was to longgggggg.... hehehehe...

we had special bond actually with all the form 4's.. we had to showed our talent during our Talent Time Show... i entered 'dikir barat' since i was from kelantan... so i became 'awak2'.. with load voice..hehehe... it was a superb experience.. it actually developed my confidence as i noe i need to be confident n precise in what i do in future.. despite all tortured and scolded we became more in to batch spirit...

being form 1 at that time was extremely i can say crucial... emmm... we got to do lots of things either we want or willingly to do or not... yeahhh.. ragging for sure.. but not that overeacting... hahaha still few seniors got called by the wardens and faced disciplinary fine.. too bad for them.. but at the end we got it back..huh!!!

waking up as early as 5am... took a shower, solat subuh, made our own bed, do room duty (including seniors...hehehehe!!!) .. sent bags to class room, get ready for breakfast (wipe the dinning table although its already been done by the workers, sit straight and wait for doa to be recited..)... then line up for short assembly... entered the class n ready for classes... in the afternoon, go for a lunch... back to dorm... solat zuhur,  have a nap (seriously mengantuk gell!!!)... then got ready for prep... then went for tea n asar prayer... and change clothes for training... oppsss before that.. shower booking 1st... hehehe if not u will be late for dinner and became late comers... back to room n had shower (to get the optimum speed during showering u just make sure ur body wet n upply shampoos n body wash together, brush ur teeth n then busshhhhhh,,,, all waters.. lastly wash ur face..hahahahahaha..)confirm u will be as expressed as a flash....

at dinner we had to line up, 1st for our meal n then for seniors in the same table if u got ***cau table mate...hahahaha... the we ate together as the oldest started 1st then us... eat with manners using fork n spoon... without noise... u can hear no sound at all for 1st 5 minutes... then tinggg toonngggg sscccreedddddd..... n the waited until after meal doa... then rushed to Surau... after mahrib prayer went back to class for nite prep... some of us did homeworks some that discussion, chit chatting if u get lucky without SV (supervisor) basically prefects... then went for supper... backed to dorm and ready to sleep...

buttttt... not yet...

our BS will called us and asked if we had done anything wrongly or what ever.... then we got to sleeppp.... finally....

so basically that was the routine for passes as Form 1 student...


p/s: i have a lot to tell but i think until here then... to all Survivors 0105 I MISSSSSS U ALLL!!!!!!

xoxo - ainnadzri

... tHe 1St n The LasT...

salam,

yesterday 5th May 2012... i had a wonderful moment ... i feel like i was in college time..having fun with juniors and friends on the field... playing around.. but this time mixed.. boys n gurls.. hehehe.. previously while in college we only have sisters but now differ.... it was so fun and good to release tension.. since it was my 1st and last... in final semester ...i wish to attend as many event as possible.. any time that i feel available..hehehe... Uskhwah Day Sciencess 2012.. so happy...

we were divided in few groups.. so i was in Coral (orange)..hehehe...yeay..we got da best house.. 1st placed!!!! yyooohhooo!!! hehehe...

i was really excited since da day before.. unfortunately my besties could not join... some of them went home, some of them had a vacation with family and some of them had unfinished job n some had not known where about..huhuhuhu..(SAD).. T_T.

but Coralians made me happy all day...hehehe.. we had lots of game like explorace, war fight, tug of war, 'baling selipar'... puzzle memory (i was in da game n got 1st place ...yey!!!)... fishing bottles and many more..

hehehe.. so much fun n i cant describe it well.. u guys should experience them all by urself...hehehehe

here some picas that i wanna share with u.. hopefully u guys gonna like it hehehee..

...tug of war team..

..baling selipar team...

..beauty coralians..

...team mates for puzzle memory...

..Leha n Me..

so thats all...

love,

xoxo

...wHen sEnsiTiviTy eXpLODED..

salam..
this post MIGHT be HARSH!!

after all year being together..this is how u pay me..
after all worries n troubles u made..
after all hardship for me to adapt to u..
after all things that i have done to u...

after all...

after all...

im no one to u...

love....

... woNdeRiNg ...

salam dear,

so today i had finished 1st batch of my research...well the research basically about potential plant that give quick respond toward abnormalities surrounding it.. so far i had treat 21 types of plants from different species... ermm.. only few give +ve respond... huhuhuhu

so what came out in my mind on my way back from the lab was that...how did u value ur friend? did u tell him/her ur feeling towards them as a friend? treat them like ur own siblings to show appreciation? fetch them as near as u can so that u wont give hardness/difficulty to them? text them non stop? treat them breakfast or lunch or dinner or supper? talk to them when u feel sorrow? or 'back mouth' them?

since u r close to that 'friend'... should u treat them like that? ...

memang muka tembok la kn..sigh~~

people... just treat ur friend like u r like to be treated... just think positively although u noe them not like others... be fair for yourself...

p/s: this post only for my crammed mind... >_<

love, xoxo

..MiSS u BabY!!!!!!...

salam...
its good to be able to write again..
huhuhuhuhu..
so many things happen..
from the day that i finished my internship..
new sem for final year..
papa diagnosed for minor stroke..
ali, emi and ilah finished their UPSR, PMR and SPM exams..
school holidays..
mid term exams and coming soon enough end of semester exam..
final year project..
project seminar presentation with Lina, oPpo n me..
trip to Sg.Panching waterfall with Taekwando Club..
a trip to Apin's House in Air Hitam..
and next function gonna be AGD SCIENCESS..
hehehe too many to story morry..
but dont be sad baby..coz i'll filled up all da pictures and videos...
YEAHhh sure just for u...

p/s: still i have to finish my lab reports and assignments..plus final presentation...

.almost there..

salam.

hi its been ;like ages im not postng any thing hire..

so..

im already done with da 3rd year..

moving on to 4th year as biotech student..

hehehe..

just a year..

lots of thing happened n its good actually.. 

half part of me still remain childish ..hehehe

but another half totally reformed..

huhuhuhu

hapofully everything goes smothly..

next 2 weeks im gonna start my internship..

i really looking forward on that.hihihihi

 til then..

..Fitrah alam..

...syahdu...

salam..
post kali ni nak ckp dalam bahasa melayu..

pagi ni syahdu je..
rasa nyaman..
sejuk tp mendamaikan jiwa..

bunyi burung2 bwtkn aku rasa mcm kat kampung 12 tahun yg lalu..
sukar nak digambarkn kembali..

waktu tu rasa seronok sgt bile balik kg..
dulu lain sekarang lan kn..

waktu dulu x boleh diundur lagi..

nape mcm tu ea..
rasa mcm semlm je aku ade kat kg..

tambah2 lg suasana mcm ni buat aku rindu..

rindu pada kedamaian yg ade kat kg..
kat sini rasa..
tp waktu kat kg akan rasa lg seronok ..

kampungku yg hanye tinggal kg..
sejak arwah pergi..ntah ape yg jd pd rumah tu..
harta memang akan jd rebutan ke pada saudara mara..

bukan ke kite patut kongsi...

aku rindu kampung yg dulu..

ya allah kau lindungilah arwah nenek ku di sana..
begitu juga dgn arwah pak ndak ku..
sesunguhnya Kau yg maha esa dan maha pengasihani..
aku rindu dgn mereka ..kau tempatkn lah mereka di kalangan makhluk mu yg Engkau sayangi...
amin...

.. i jUsT DonT unDersTAnD!!!!

...??????....

salam..

how would u feel when u r frustrated..

or what if u r not satisfied with someone..

or what if u angry with someone.

arrgghhhh...

i just cant see his/her face rite now..

seriously ..

please dont make me revealed my temper...

i dont wanna show it..

but sometme it just cannot control..

it came out naturally..

it really make me feel afraid..

i love u..

but the way u took make me mad..

BADLY MAd..

arrgghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....

..hoPeLeSs...

...aSsigNmenT...gRoup wOrk...ProPosaL...

salam...

why did the time run so fast?...

im sure some of us have been thinking about it..

actually ... we have to manage our time smartly..

Y?

me as student ..some time do work at the very last minutes..

when i think again it actually such a waste..

as time passes by n my age also had added..hehehe...i ask my self what actually i want in my life..

if i was asked his kind of question before..i would answer..what ever i had started something i must finish it no matter what happen..and the outcome some achievable n some just moderate..

so friends...

we should appreciate our time more than our lover...honestly it what i do... divide the time according to the priority and schedule what to do..so that nothing will be miss ...

ok..

smile always..=) 

...iNsiDe mE...

..buTterfLy..

salam...

life is like a wheel..
when we r on da top we will then be at da bottom...

before...i could feel the warmness of friendship..
theres a hug to hold up my tears...
theres a hand to support me when im lost n alone..
theres persons or friend who would keep me accompanied...

where i be i can feel it..

as time goes by...
some decrease..
the warm became solder n colder...
the tight became looser n looser...
where are u...

as time change.. people also change...

sometimes the loneliness creeps me out..
although in class with all da classmates..
my tears came out...from nowhere...
its good to see people concern n care to one another..
but..

being independence is not that easy...
i always mingle around friends...
but when im alone ..
the sorrow accompanied me..
the tears cheer me up..

m i too easy to be forgotten...
m i that bad that nobody seen my presence...
m i like that...

mama..i miss u...

..PeopLe'S PeRcepTioN..

salam...

lots of interpretation will be thrown apart from da 1st impression..

same goes with da assumption, perception or opinion regarding da matter in discuss..

there are different types of ways to convey those perception...

some may be in melancholic, criticism or sarcastic..  

to be rational...

all of those will be various impact on each individual..every on2 is not da same

to be positive..

all of those are da peanut in da butter...

coz some can it it while some cant..

so as for me...just take it lightly, may be they didnt mean to be harsh or make u uneasy..but just take it n try to alter it n become better in future...

if some one had condemned u...just leave it be..,we cant shut others mouth...

remember to behave so that other people would not talk back or even 'kantoi depan2'...hehehe..

p/s: if anyone didnt like this post im sorry..didnt mean to hurt any body..just o share a thought...  

...beTwEen maTuriTy & RespOnsibLliTy...

salam...

1st of all this note is just to share for all off us..

whether u guys believe it or not officially we had been friend for almost 3 years..

lots of fun, happy n sadness we had share together...

nevertheless, obstacle will come since we had separated due to our desire...

maturity is so subjective..same goes to responsibility...

some says that both will come together as we overcome problem or challenges that we had faced...

there is no actual module or syllabus for obtaining both...

its good to voice out and spill out our thought...

but in proper ways...

all by means...

no emotional, no heart pain, no intend to had cold war or anything so so..

friends, i think we had known this right...

if we open our eyes and think rationally ...

we will never regret if we had said...

if somebody misunderstand us then we should explain in the best and good manner... 

so they will understand us...

insyaallah our life here will be more peaceful and harmony..

p/s: its a light reading...no war no payback action and no contempt...

..wHaT's iN siDe mE..

m i that awful...

..surViVors 0105..

salam..

this post is a special dedication to all my frens whos used to be called Survivors0105 while we were in Tunku Kurshiah College..

we have met on da same date like today the 4th january 2001..lots of memories we had shared together until we were in 5th former 2005..

da bond between us made us as what n who we are today..still hugging each other when we met..still concern ..still sharing da best moment together..still cry n lend shoulders when we were sad..

thus...i hope this relationship will last long n we can meet each other when reunion is made...

love u guys so much..muaxxx...xoxo.._qu'en_

2010..

...my days...

my days was full of lies...
my days was full of dirts..
my days was full of regrets..
my days was full of egos...
my days was full of evil dos..
my days...


nevertheless..

my days tough me to be a better person..
my days learnt me to more careful in choosing friends..
my days gave me more experiences...
my days appreciated me as who m i n who i m..
my days nobbled da most wonderful smiles in da world...

live life to da max...

..cuti sem..

....tHe bOnD...

this sem break lot of things happened..unhappy..happy..as for me ..

just having fun al da time although its hurt...y?..

well..this aidil adha nota like b4..as u noe just like aidil fitri b4..i dot noe may be this year..somthing missing...not as always ...

then..when theres time to hang p with friends...byk plak alasan n complain...y must he/she..mcm x de org lain..so what ... its me myself...who cares i wanna frenz with whom..i noe my limits..stop treat me like a little girl..im 22 OK...

then ali bersunat..hahaha..da day that i wanna have...nothing change pun..mama n papa still give extra care..

well what to do..anak manje..its not like im jeles..but still...b4 this pun same jugak...

m i too childish?

really?

mama said..ape la kakak ni mcm budak kecik..what have i done that show me a budak?

huhuhuhu..

after this ..im going to gemencheh ..what for...

wait for my next post k..

hehehehe..

c u.. xoxo...

...eNd oF sEm1 3Rd yEaR...

...eXams...LaTe NiTes...bOriNk sTuFf...

iii mmmiiiiiissssss uuuuu!!!!!!...

hehehe...i took me long time to write again n this blog..huhuhuhu..buzy woman..hahahaha...my life threatening me so hectic pass few weeks...last minutes assignments....preparation for the exams n all borink stuff which i need to faced and go through with them all...hehehe..plus..its kind of weird to write in English since  i had never spoken in English in my daily life..i tried but sometimes people see me with weird gesture..n i cant handle it..hahahaha..

exams are almost finished just another paper that took my 6 days to have it..huhuhuhuhu..the gap was filled by borink stuff..like 'guling2 atas katil coz sitll in daydream', no idea where to start study again, surf internet which im not that type like to overdo it like some people 247 online n watch da flat screen, watching korean's series (heheheh i loike!!!!...) n last but not least hang around huhuhuhuhu (really tiring n exhausted...huh!!)...

this afternoon im gonna have DO class which is a class for da last paper..huhuhuhu...

hopefully, this class will be last n i can colect all da notes from her..hukhukhuk...

...tHis HearT...

...nObOdy...

yes ...
nobody knew what inside this heart...
so much pain...
so much anger...
so much pity...
so much desire...

yes...
nobody knew whats gonna happen on this heart...
the thing that not gonna end..
the thing that not gonna vanished within a second...
the thing that not gonna smashed n broken just like an empty jar...
the thing that gonna remain there silently...

this heart...
had been n all circumstances...
pain, hatred, anger, hurt, touched, happy, joy, missing n love..

this heart...
really hope every thing will be in the right order..
as usually like nothing happen..

but...

this heart ...
knew that it was not that simple...

sigh~~

...cOnVesT 2010...

..Can'T waiT...

it was da 1st time i had been at iium gombak for CONVEST...wooowwww!!!!..it was really awesome n really excite me...i just cant wait for my own convocation hehehe....

* ni sempat jugak tgk demo taekwando kat sane...hehehe

..aFteR raYa...

...BioTecH 072,081 & 082.. GlaMouR Raya!!!...

of course after raya ..more open house n so on..until at da end of syawal...so fun n njoy having with all my frens...still lina n oppo weren't there..huhuhu (disappointing a bit) ..but ok..

hehehe...luckily i was one of da mc for that day with shahir...both never been as mc..hahahaha..lawak jugak la..hahaha...the one n only vip that came to our function is bro. Don nur Lukman (sweet n gentleman "kate apin"hehehehe)...

that nite we ate nasi ujan panas, sate, roti jala, kuih cek mek n curry-puff... there were two games which da 1st one was 'jgn lipa lirik ' n the other one was 'pemberite byk kepala'..for da 1st game.. da rule was just as same as da one on tv...but for this event it was becoming like karaoke session.. well n way thanx to shauqi, ukasya, azanita n miji..for being very sporting..hahahaha...

for da 2nd game , a group of people were goin to recite a new based on da given title..n deliver it as creative as they can spontaneously...hehehe...tha group that win da competition was consist of miji, bonzer, mus, anip n bad..hehehehe..they really make the scene really xciting n hilarious..hahahaha

at the end of da event we had chosen shauqi as MR.RIANG n awatif as MIS RIA..hehehehe



overall ... was very happening n i m gonna miss all of this soon..huhuhu