...sHouLd i...

...iM hUrT baDLy...

what shall i do...

as da matter of fact..

its not good hating people...

what shall i do...

im hurt...

..FaMiLy..

..HaRi RaYa...

*part 1*

this raya was da most memorable for all of da members of da family...

we miss Ijoy..especially when we need some one to (mesin kelapa)...hehehe...pasangkn langsir coz he da tallest..

n..

this raya he wasnt around..mama da puas nangis...hehehe...no body noe ...me too...

well..it not only that..

this year acik n his family beraya in his in law's house...so its fun...

as if u noe...i lived in police station...so we cant play mercun in da surrounding...thus when we went to acik's place we had chance to watched fireworks..hehehe...papa only remain silence..but ali was so excited..hehehe...all small kids like that..not to mantion we too when we were kids...

p/s: to be continue...

..Life Is fUn..bUt mUcH hArDeR tHaN bEfOre..

..u tHiNg..

..iM tHiNkiNg oF...

...sOmeThiNg...

relationship is too wide...

do u noe all u relatives..

..iM tHiNkiNg oF...

...LiFe iS cHanGinG...

do u realise something change around u...

do u realise that u r changing..

of course...

ur age change..get older..

ur image change...get smarter or prettier..

ur lifestyle change...get better or harder...

these all r very simple matter to take care on..

but...

those r very important...

how to improve..

only u noe...

behave ur attitude...

.SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa..

..maaf dipinta...salam keberkatan...

salam semua..especially for those who read my blog...Selamat Hari RAya maaf zahir n batin...

if i had done wrong or talk nonsence...i sorry...

if there are any post that make u feel (makan dalam)..im sorry too...

im just a person who always do any mistakes...

...aSsiGnmEnT LeaDerSHiP...

....who's da best leader....

*paRt 1*

who do u thing should be da best leader for da entire world...not really per se...but da one that can guide us n lead the country without any misuse of power...

in my mind there few name...this assignment not only to praise the style of leading method but we can also critics them..

Nabi Muhammad (S.A.W)...tun abdul razak...tan sri musa hassan...tun dr.mathir...tun abdullah ahmad badawi...dr.anuar ibrahim...

argh...its cramp rite hire..

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...25th Ramadhan...

yeah..yeah...papa's home...papa's home...hehe...papa is home...he just came back from meeting at putrajaya for 3 days...its good to c u papa...its can of weird when mama fetch me from da bus stop..

yeah its true bcoz..u r da one who always do that for me..hehehe...

da family members almost complete..xcept for ijoy...for da time being only eddie who is nt here yet..well..school holiday for raya is not starting yet...

here i would like to thanx to uia admin for giving us long holiday...for da 1st time uia folow our desire..hehehe...

..FaMiLy..

..NewS FrOm CaNaDa..

im so happy today..

ijoy called me just now...soo good to hear his voice..i miss him...

hehehe..

hope to see u soon..

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...24th Ramadhan...

..."malam 7 likur"...

the nite that full of light...n da nite that most of muslim wanted to wait for Lailatul Qadar..da most wanderful day in Muslim Taqwin...da nite that Allah promise to give lots of bless n prosperous..

ok brothers and sisters..let wait for it.

n perform as much as possible our ibadat..

...mOmEnT aT hOmE...

...Wawa...

hehehe...today wawa asked me to follow her to Kota Bharu..she wanted to claim her laptop...so that da 1st time at home that we went out together...

still..we had fought...hehehe..that is normal...

its fun actually..hehehe...

..iM tHiNkiNg oF...

...hOw dO i fEeL...

its da 2nd last day b4 raya holiday..

syirin n raf were goin back today...i 'll be alone..well what to do..

but its good...

no rush n just easy as i wish to be...bcoz b4 this i went home spend few days at home with ijoy...its true i miss him..

well.its ok...he'll be back when he wanted to..

heheehe..

im not alone actually...stil i have apin n mimi to accompany me at da hostel n of course oppo n farra still here in kuantan..for me its not enough...idont noe what happend to me...

i miss him so much...sorry dear i cant meet u...love u r everything to me...lets hold it together..i noe u always said..'sayang kite kene kuat'...but still some time i lost that feel..i want u to be nxt to me..always next to me...

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...22nd Ramadhan..

let see..today...only my frenz n i were in hostel..so in da morning we went carefour..bought some groceries, veges, chicken, etc..at da same time....we 'usha2' sale..carlo rino n sembonia..da sale was about da discout for hari ray.but still da price about RM100++...wow...we cant affort that..hahha.

then, as arrived we made Kek Batik...hehehe..so we splited into 2 groups..since we cannto bring stove into da hostels...we illegally brought rice cooker n multipurpose cooker...hehehe...

da 1st group which r mimi n i..another group r apin, ika, zai, awa n zainab..

hehehe..

da meals for tonite breaking fast are...

-sup ayam-white rice-telor dadar-sambal kicap-kek batik-some fruits - black plum n green grape n ofcourse dates..

we ate n have a light chat..hehehe as usual ..

i liked tearsing ika..i made her angry bcoz its too hard to see her red blushing face..heheheh..its fun..i wish we gonna stick on this relationship..

..Life Is fUn..

...Da iNneR siDe oF mE..

trough out this ramadhan i've learnt alot..

being freinds with all of u make me think af the color of our friendship..

all da hardness...sacrifies...happiness...bck stepping...etc...

all n all we were together..not to mention ...after we had bad fought we united again..in da bond of relationship..its a long journey to take..i always pray for da best...i bet al of u r da same...

to my rumates...thanx for being supportive all this while n be there when i need somone to hear from me...let da secret remain as a secret...

to my close friends...i lov eu guys...u r da one who taught me lot of thing for being a person to survive...

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...21st Ramadhan...

its been a long journey..for all of us..who leave far away from families..

we had to prepare raya for ourselve since most of us r 21 years old already..hehehe

today also da last day for my mid sem exam..but not to forget after raya there still 1 more paper..hehehe...

for ruby...she went back today..have a save journey babe..gonna miss u for this 2 weeks...hehehhe...i went to apin rum n we break fast together as usual..

that nite we went out...apin had rented a car for us to go for a shopping...we send 'ala kadar je'...you can see on "shopping" post..hehehe...

we had a great time...thanx guys for this enjoyable moment that i always wanted to go out with u guys...

...wHaT a Day!!..

..sHoPpiNg...

hehehe..this sounds crazy or me..hehehe..so its like this...hehehe...at first its only ika who wanted to buy a handbag..

but..

after few stall to another..we found that this shop full of offer..da handbags all of them are very cheap...well suitable for us as student...

this is unbeleivable from only one to all of us bought one for each...hehe...this on is art da kuntan perade..enough for handbags..

we spent our time at the small booth ...da goodies there not bad..i bought 2 shawls..one for ,me n another one for wawa..hehe...they are pretty...

then, we move to da expose raya at terminal park..fuh..its hot..and sandwish..lots of people...

soo hoottttsss..

we searched for wallet n purse...hehe....mimi n ika bought one for each of them..ika love shopping so much...

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...20th Ramadhan...

every day s like a new day for me..da day that all muslims wanted to be for da whole year...its impossible...ramadhan comes only once in a year.., may be this is da last ramadhan for me...as we n me ..myself didn't noe how long we can be in this beautiful world...

every day we faced different obstacle in order to comlete our tasks...fasting...teaches us to be patients...bcoz..'sabar itu sebaruh daripada iman'...

every day i think of my self...how will i be if im not muslims...can i be so calm if i had to over come my anger, hardness in life, etc...where i wanna go if i feel lost...who will be guide me when im alone...

every day we practise prayer..r they enough...r they complete for 5 times per day...ask ur self...u noe da answer...

..iM tHiNkiNg oF...

..fRieNds aLL dA saMe...

what should i say about them...

bcoz sometimes...i feel like having fun with them...

sometimes...i feel like how miserable life i have with these nonsence attitude...

sometimes...i feel like very curious on what they do...is it right or wrong...shoud i have slow talk with them or just give them hint...

sometimes...i feel that they play annoying...(sakitnye hati)...

sometimes...i feel that i cannot live without them....

trust me...just be friends and leave ur life to da max..just like that..huh..

p/s : this only A slight taught of me...nothing behind..

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...19th Ramadhan..

love u guys...for past few weeks..all da curiosity n worries had eliminated totally...opps not totally...almost total...hehehe..guys its been so long to hang out aroud just like da old days...miss that moment so much..r u feel da same...

lots of thing happends...not just for us but others too...adaptation to what we been through taught us how to be truely survivors...

buka puase at awana restaurant, tanjung lumpur...made me recalled our joy n happiness momento...hehehe...i sweet, sur n spicy..like our Ikan siakap mask 3 rasa...

all of us bake with full n overload stomach...hehehehe...

p/s:awanis ko memang mkn byk ek...

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

..18th ramadhan...

why is it so tired...may becoz of 2 papers in one day..but how about others who 3 papers today..dammm...wake up...study genetics and org.chem...dont repeat agein..its hurt...really hurts...

im missing him so badly..huhuhu...text messages n phn calls...bothe didnt work...plis come here..

im drowned....safe me...i cant breath...

...iTs cOmpLeCaTed..

...nOThinG mUcH...

...nobody think what is da best for him/herself..nobody do what is da best for him/herself...

nobody,,,

nobady,,,

nobady,,,

but u...

...u...urself should...think first b4 act..or not u may face da obstacles all by urself....

think about it..

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...17th Ramadhan...

its NUzul Qur'an...basiclly today i recite al-quran more than usuall...no celebration but for me enough of rememberance...its holiday..so no clss..but lots of thing to do..lot of notes to be finished...

alhamdullillh, its been 17 days we had ur fasting...im wondering...is my ibadah will be accepted by HIM...is that enough...r my prayer been delivered to HIM...

through out these days...i learnt a lot of things...

i hope u too..

..iM tHiNkiNg oF...

...FuTuRe...

no body can predict what will happend..

shoud we just leave it...

or we can make it as to fulfill our dreams...

u have dreams rite..i hv...she has...he also has...instead little boy n little girl has it too..

hehehehe...

think about it...may be u feel awkward...but think forward...u will see..

p/s: take note guys...

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...16th Ramadhan...

im released...its all i can say...

life must go on..eventhough a lot of things had to face...

lab bioprocess...bengang n unaspected...i think there difference between lab practical n grouping acessment..huhu...making yoghurt with fermentation process...

leadership class..full of joy...hehehehe..at last he is not that bad..thnx bro for da dadih...heheehehe...=P...

...wHaT a LiFE !!!!...

..how could u...

how could u do this to me..

how could u tell lies to me...

how could u break my trust on u...

how could u...

everything happend in life had its own cause n implication...either it happend to da person itself or their surroundings...life full of challenges...its depends on u how make ur life..u cant blame HIM...as HE will not change u unless u change it urself.its up to u...

i dont understand...

after this while..i thinkin of shoud i trust anybody like u used to b4...r they qualified to hold my trusty...in relationship...trusty is the most important part which it is came from natural behaviour...

once u lie...automatically u r not a trustworthy person..its true..n... its happend...no matter how claver n smart u cover it...da truth will revealed...at that time u can only do is pray...if u still other people may hekp u to get out from that situation....

p/s : im not pointin this to any body..im only wait for explaination...im waiting...i wanna hear it from u urself...

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...15th Ramadhan...

bro...i miss u...cheh..hehehehe...

exam starts yoday..as for me..da reparation for this paper not so good..i rather think of my brother...well...he's ok..da paper's questions were too straight forward...its only about memorization...which my weakness...

but what is really shockong me is that..."aku kene kencing"...its a harsh words..but what can i say then..

its true what papa said..

we cant give our trusty to others ...no matter how close u r with he/she...sooner or later..u may noe da true color of them...

im not pointing it out to anybody but...'sapa makan cili die yg rasa pedas...berapi...'

for this prosperous month..i only can pray for da best...asked HIM to avoid me from those kemungkaran...guide me to da rite path...im only a human being...full of emotion n weakness...

p/s: semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat kepada mereka yg berkenaan...

...MiD-sEm eXaMs...

...tHe sCheDule...

*this post will be update after da exam taking placed

5th Sept : Bioprocess 1

bioprocess..so much process n criteria should be memorised...but then, its all happen..some piece can be remember but some..on my own..hhehehhehe...well..for da exam it was simple...too straight forward question..alamak..kantoi...the schematic diagram for fermentation lupe........................blank.......................ahaks...

8th Sept : UNGS 2050 - Ethics

now i noe....ethics is too many to learn..it wasnt that simple as was told by others...its too cerewet....but da questions basically have their point...still with uztazah Zakiah..without any quranic ayat or hadith..we only can get less marks...huhu..T_T...

: Eng. for Academic Purposes (EAP)

as aspected..some of our friends had alreasy noe the question bcoz some of them had friends in gombak..for them"u should told us..we r ur frenz too..dont be so selfish...n dont be so hidung tinggi...n da most important thing dont point on other cheating while exam as u doin da same''...animal testing should be carried out?..for those who selected this topic for their term paper congratez (raf & sonto)...u must be easy with this question..unlike our frens n i...we just wish for pur best...

10th Sept : Genetics

11th Sept : Org.Chemistry

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...14th Ramadhan...

we arrived at Achik house about 1 am after mkn langsat at kg.jawa Klang...hehehe...we try to avoid tol bcoz its out of budget since da car took a lot of fuel...hehehehe...

after taking rest about 2hours we start our journey to KLIA at 5am..according to da original plan we had to da airport at 4am...but what to do sume mandi bunga...hahahaha...

at KLIA, ijoy met his frenz from MIAT...believe or not he loves his frenz more than ours...ijoy takes note...

at there, i took lots of pics..u can look at them at my facebook site www.facebook.com/ainnadzri

browse at photos and click at KLIA...

its sad...but nobody cry..hehehe..no mushy2 things...we hope that he will be good there...n achieve his goals...

p/s: all da best bro...i'll missing u...always remeber what i said to u b4...ok...take da gretest care of urself...we only can pray for ur success...loving u always...

...aTiKaH...

...mY liTtLe cOusIn...

hehehe..at this age...i got a cousin at age of 4month...she is so cute...hehehe...

emmmppphhh.....geramnye comel syangat..hahahaha....

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...13th Ramadhan...

for da 1st time...my life experience an incident which no body would expected to be happend...with da involvement of da 3rd party a lot of prediction flying in my head...intinct some times helping us in what we tend to do or to decide whether da action is rite or wrong...

accusing people for they dont do is a big mistake...lied to other is a big mistake too...who is in da rite site only HIM know it...i just help what i can do...

so serious rite..hehehe...

well actually i leaving kuantan for a day..hehehe..kelakar...im goin to kl...ijoy will be leaving soon...while in da bus..i kept thinkin...'how our raya will be without him?'...'is mama n papa really ok with that?'...'me?'...

well...in da mood of that..still..da trouble maker plays her part too...papa n mama had fought again after da last case which had been past for years...they dont noe what did i noe...as for ijoy...they only had it in short time...like b4...

erm...blank~...

..FaMiLy..

...iJoy'S LeaVinG...

short brief about him..

he's my brother..the 3rd child of da family...1st bro which mean same like me...he was so excelent while in MRSM Gerik n the transfer to MRSM Serting...he wnt for foundation at Tylor College..n now leaving for degree in Mechanical Engineering at University of Carlton, Canada...

he's easy goin person...not to mention really..really stubborn..hehehe...really like to think something deeply...always have +ve thinking...he always try to make his life easy although its not...if he got trouble or dunno what to do he always go to mama..hehehe..nobody noe about this...except me..

ijoy..im gonna miss u...rajin2 balik...n listen..

once u take ur 1st step..dont ever think of turn it back..just stick to what u have decide...life must go on no matter how hard it is..keep focus n leave life to da max..hahahahaha...

seriously, i gonna miss u so much...love u...

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...12th Ramadhan...

feeling dissappointed is normal either u dont wanna accept it or u have to accept it...

its ur choice..

what ever it is if its include da one that should be da first priority..i have to accept it..

huhuhu..eap class as discuss b4 will be held at nite 8.30 but it change to 8.30 am..emm..not enough sleep...

as soon as i went into da class...mdm ruil straightly appoint me to give my opinion upon "ur " dicussion about studing online..is it kind of cheating or else...hehehe..not to mention it always happend to me...whether i like it or not i had to give my own answer..beleve me u dont wanna noe..hahahaha..

then lab..tissue culture...we actully had finished it last week but since last week the media that we used were unavailable..'da abis'..hehehe...so we had to do it today.its a normal procedure...but the result will be lot of containmnation petri dishes..hahahahaha.......

rite after lab i went out..wanted to go to bazar ramadhan...n pop!!!..why dun i asked putq to go together...but other thing came out...its really shocking..from 1 ting to another thing happend to her...i just help what did i have...hopefully nothing bad...

lets pray for da best...for u..for me..n.. da entire human being...

..ameen..

...HuMaN BeiNg..

...sHouLd U...

if u made mistakes...do u simply appoint other person or what should i say blame other upon ur carelessness n ur irresponsible just to run away from that matter...

its been clear day by day..

normally people who do not want to accept his/her mistakes live with full of ego...n selfish...these kind of people actually doesnt had any sincerity or soft hearted...they tend to accuse other with out any evidence or prove...

u should aware of these kind of person...

beware...

if not ur will becoming the victim...

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...11th Ramadhan...

today will be my last day at home with da whole family...papa, mama, me, wawa, ijoy, ilah, emi n ali..not to forget wan n of course edie...although its been short meet with edie...he seriously grab my attention..hehehe...

today also papa had special buka puasa with his Ketua Pengarah Polis Kelantan at kg.pek...so he is not goin to break fast with us..mama supposely has to go but bcoz of me..she doent go...(hehehe..her beloved daugther..)..jgn mare...

today also for da first time im home..i cook..mama not so well plus she had just came back from school...well being a teacher is a honourable job but so tiring...salute mama...

ayam msk tomato n sayur campur..plus gulai kawah which i bought when ijoy, ilah n i went to bazar ramadhan..hehehe....

then,,,most of all...im goin back to campus...finale...papa a bit angry with me bcoz i skeep my classes.yeah i got classes during weekend...so i had to made my own vacation or other wise i cant spent a bit time with ijoy...(i feel so sad..bcoz he is so close to me..)..

well..im arrived at kuantan about 3.45am straight away go back to hostel...

yeah..b4 i forgot..b4 i went back to campus wawa made kek batik..hehehe..as bekalan..thanx systah..

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

..10th Ramadhan...

its ,merdeka day....whike other celebrate merdeka at their places..im home...

cleaning da window..only be clean for hari raya which mean once a year..or twice...

hehhehe....

mama planed to made pulut kuning sice we cant do Kenduri for ijoy's leaving...

tired..tired..tired..

but...

its worth it...

its been a tradition for ur family...if we cant do kenduri..we'll make pulut kuning..its like a celebration among our family...hehehe....well...

its not make it to delever to our neigborhood...rendang n pulut bcoz..its only for da family members...

yeah..not to forgot..today we break our fast in da dark..da current was black out due to thunder storm..so we had a difficult time...not to mention we r kind use to it..hehehehe...

...mOmEnT aT hOmE...

..unrevealed...

happiness in family is da most precious tresure in da world...every seconds..every minutes...every hours..happines cant be describe...

you have to go through ur self...

i wanted to share every thing..but i dunno where to start....my home coming this time is full of joy...full of laugh n jokes..

until one part...im askin my self..m i gona have this moment again after this...

im so sorry i cant describe ....

da truth...ive been sitting for few hours...to write this post...its just..i dont noe...

.RaMaDhaN aL- MuBaRaK.....

...9th Ramadhan...

days by days..being at home...da most precious time..since ijoy here with us..this is his last ramadhan with us..as well as for me..im goin back to campus tomorrow..

the scenario we had together..strengthen our bond...i dont noe what is goin to happen next...

the time we have we spent together...there r many thing to tell but i prefer to keep it inside...

adik still da same..kepala batu..hehehe..malas yg amat...it made mama worried..bcoz he not like his abg2...

edie..da wiredo..emmm..he texted me..n asked to keep his earphone in good condition..or may be he want to say something..why is it hard for him to leave out what inside him...da more i think da more i getin my self crazy..so leave it tp him..either he wanna talk or not..we cant push some one to talk if he / she didnt wanna talk..rite..