...wHaT a Day!!..

..LasT NiTe aT HoMe...

hehehe...since da 1st day im home..tonite is da 1st time i went out side of da house...hehehe...thanx papa for bringing me n ilah to mcD..hehehe....

i donno why when im home its like im was freezed in side here....

i cant move..im just like being at home...do house work...n lepak2...although nobody here,,,

..iM tHiNkiNg oF...

..mY fUtUrE...

how it gonnna be...

m i still at his level or not...

honestly i cannot control my own potential...

seriously..

sometimes...

i wanna be optimistic..

but..

some times i feel so down n humble...

its like every nite im thinkin of it...

hopefully HE understand my prays...

xox

...mOmEnT aT hOmE...

...cOmpLemEnTaRy tEacHeR (cTEACHER)...

ahaks~..

hehehe...every time or every year i will help my mama to make her rancangan tahunan n plan aktivity for da whole year..hehehe..its kind of fun..n evry time i do it.it make me thing that teachers push themselves to think about activiti for the school..while me as student ..i never plan any thing to do through out da sem except for da takwin that been given to us from anr..

heheh..

kind of pathethics...

its ike i cannot conduct my self...

so for this year..

i will plan my life..hehehe..

hope fully all of them will work up..

wish me luck k...

xox..

...mOmEnT aT hOmE...

...iM hOmE aGaiN...

ehehe...im home again....

papa had started nagging at me since last week...huhu..what to do ..being home make me feel very comfortable...i still can see that sadness in mama's eyes...sense of full regrades...

as for me..im ok..but still...she's gone..life must go on..

next 2 weeks i have 3 mid term starting with halal & haram....then basic genetic engineering and then enzymology.....

...mE, mYsELf & i....

...far apart...

a gap make us separate...that gap make us feel uneasy when we r together...that same gap make us feel weird when we do tigs together...

why this gap appeared in da 1st place...who built it like a strong wall that isolate us from one another like we never be bonded again...who should be point for build up this wall...who...how was it built...did it necessary...

to be honest..nobody want to break da bond...it just it not so tight like covalent bond may be just like Van Der Waals interaction....it can be tight again when da environment is good n suitable to make adjustment....

it will be normal again....its just a matter of time....

once never turn to another if we still have that bond...but y did it accuse with too many scandals or inhibitors that make it hard to be normal again...

my advice ...if u want this gap eliminated u must try by ur self...approach the selectable site n try to communicate with it either it will accept or not...

...HaNya Dia TaHu..

...redha dgn ketentuanNya...

...malam ini merupakan mlm ketiga bacaan tahlil...

...saudara mara masih berkumpul...hari ini mungkin dari terakhir untuk bersama....walaupun ain tiada bersama ...tp suasana nya jelas terasa dari nada suara mama dan papa...

..sebaik sj bacaan selesai...sedikit jamuan makn di adakn sebagi tanda ucapan pada ahli suarau dan jiran tetangga yg hadir sama....

...sekarang mama dan papa dalam perjalanan pulang ...semoga perjalan mereka lancang...ain dapat jangkakan perasan mama...sungguh mama pasti berat untuk tinggalkan kg halamannya...

..namun apekn daya...esok papa kerja...hidup perlu diteruskan....semoga mama tabah begitu juga dgn ahli keluarga yg lain...

...HaNya Dia TaHu..

...kehidupan ini memang sukar untuk dijangkakan...

betul kata org hidup ini pernuh dengan kejutan...ade kejutan yg menggembirakan dan ada pula yg menyedihkan...

tanggal 18 january 2010 bersamaan 2 safar 14 31hijrah...wan, armarhumah hjh naesah bt manijo telah selamat kembali ke rahmatuallah....

tidak banyak kenangan ain bersama arwah...

tapi ain pernah merasa hidup sekejap bersama wan...waktu tu usia ain lebih kurang 4 tahun..ain tinggal sekejap bersama wan...wawa mase tu br nak belajar naik basikal...hehehe...

arwah suke bawak kami jln2....die selalu belikan jajan...pernah ade sekali tu berebut nak amek jajan dari tangan arwah...tapi wan x hesah...die cakap "jgn berebut"...arwah selalu naik basikal tua..tapi basikal tu dah x de .... dah tertimbus dek rumah tua yg da roboh....sayang rumah kayu yg atuk buat da x de....rumah tu cantik...besar...yg paling ain ingat sereambinye ade ukiran kerawang yg cantik..mama cakap tu atuk sendiri yg buat...

walau pun x sempat merasa kasih sayaang atuk, tapi ain sempat bermanje ngan arwah atuk itam...die baik sgt..atuk itam pandai ubat org...mase ain kene demam campak dulu atuk itam yg buatkan penawar gune air kelapa muda...

kenangan mase kecik memang x dapat di lupa..walau pun x banyak tapi alhadulillah ain dapat ingat sikit...

sebaik saje dapat tahu arwah wan da x de... ain x th nak ckap ape...yg cume ain ingt mama...mcm mane la .... dalam mase yg sama ain teringat mase arwah ade kat umh kami di kelantan....kami dapat berbual2 walaupun x lame sbb mase tu sibuk dgn urusan ijoy nak ke kanada...tapi nasib baik emi yg selalu layan wan...ain hanya sempat ade ngan wan 4 hari je...walau pun pendengaran arwah x berapa baik ... kami selalu berbual kosong..kadang2 wan lupa nama kami...kami anggap tu cuma anggap tu gurauan wan...

wan selalu mengadu sakit kepala...kdg2 kami gilir2 urut kepala wan paling tidak pun sapukn minyak angin...wan selalu jln terketar2.. pada mula nya kami ingt wan saja buat2....tapi bile ain tanya org...tu symptom awal utuk parkinson...tp bila setiap kali pergi klinik atau hospital doktor hanya bagi th wan ade sakit urat, migrain...

wan suka duduk sorg kat umh die...arwah x berapa selesa (agaknye) duduk di rumah anak2....sebb tu wan selalu ckap nak balik....walau pun baru je sampai...

disebbkn tu...wan meninggal tanpa ade sorg pun yg menemani die...ain terkilan...sedih sgt..wan pergi tanpa kami semua th...semua adik beradik mama termasuk mama sendiri salah kn diri masing2...sapa sangka wan akan pergi secepat ini...

malam tu mama n papa terus bertolak dari rumah dan amek ain di hostel...malangnye kami sampai sebaik saja lepas wan dimandikn..mama terkilan sbb die x sempat nak laksanakan tugasnye yg terakhir sebagai anak pada wan...mam hampir rebah sebaik shaja lihat wjah arwah...ain plak hanya air mata yg mengalir..mama perlukan org untuk ade di sebelahnye...

sebaik sahaja dikafankan ....pak long, pak ngah, pak lang, mama, pak ndak, acik dan ucu bergilir2 mencium arwah dan menatap wajah beliau...ain hanya mampu lihat...x sampai hati nak biarkan arwah pergi..rasa mcm baru semalam naik basikal dgn arwah..jln2 seliling kg...arwah tolakkan basikal tua sedangkan ain dan wawa duduk je...hampir semua sepupu kami hadir semasa arwah di kafankan ... ade jugak yg sampai selepas arwah di kebumikn...

sewaktu arwah di kebumikan...papa sam2 bantu mengambus tanah...talkin dibaca..dgn nada sendu..x kurang juga esakan kecil mama sebaik saja nama wan di sebut...

wan da pergi meninggalkan kami...

buat pertama kalinya perjumpaan keluarga diadakan...segala amanah bg pemegang rumah dan sejumlah wang telah diamanahkn pada pemegang amanah...pada masa yg sama...bicara hati ke hati secara terbuka pada semua ahli keluarga...yg jauh didekatkn yg dekat dieratkan...kami sepakat untuk buang yg keruh dan ambil yg jernih....x kurang juga air mata yg mengalir luahan hati saudara mara yg terkilan dan sesal atas kematian arwah...keikhlasan juga jelas terpancar walaupun rasa kurg senang sesetgh pihak ...namun, prubahan yg di lakukan untuk kebaikan masa depan...

pada mlm pertama bacaan tahlil rasa sayu menyusup di hati...rasa seperti kekurangan sesuatu...alhamdullillah segalanya berjalan lancar...malangnya ain terpaksa pulang dulu ade tangungjawab yg perlu di laksanakn...

p/s: bagi rakan2 yg tidak tahu akan berita ini , ain menyusun jari memohon ampun...perkara yg berlaku di luar jangkaan...bukn nak menjauhkn diri tp keadaan diri yg terkejut dgn berita ini...maaf bukan niat ain untuk tidak menyebarkan...ain harap kalian faham dan dapt memaafkn ain...di sini ain juga memohon aindai kata kalian membaca post ini..sedekah kan lah al-fatihah kepada arwah wan..semoga Allah menenpatkn beliau dikalangan para muslimin dan anbia' serta menjauhi dari azab neraka...Amin...Al-fatihah....

...PaRenTinG cLaSs...

...2nd friday...

...HaLaL & HaRaM QuiZ...

hehehe since last 2 nite i didnt manage to add new post so here it is...last friday was da 2nd friday that we have for sem 4...well as usual quiz fro halal n haram...it wasn't aspected tahat da quiz was actually essay question ...dammmnnn.....OMG....every body 'cuak' gell...hehehehe...there were 3 ques...da 1st ques was about the principle of hala n haram food...da 2nd ques was about the types of food additives n da last one about our opinion about mechanical slaughtering...

huh...with ih 15 minutes we had to answer them...what to do...many like 'hentam keromo'...

ahaks ~~~

yup that true...well then we proceeded with our lecture...to be honest...it was totally boring...n i feel like being in da other word....huhu...

...inTrOdUcTioN tO FaMiLy MaNagEmeNt n PaReNtiNg...

this class was so enjoyable...hikhikhik..although da lecturer was a bit poyo ahaks~...but we enjoyed ourselves especially me...y? ...

hehehe...actually we were assigned to discuss in group about da given topics...

"why family management and parenting important?"

what do u thing..so we came out with few ideas n until we were about to decide whos gonna do da presentation....so we like to start by 'lat......ta......li.....lat....lai.....li......tam.....plum'..hehehehe..it reminded when we were kids....it was so immature but we like da like it...hehehhe...

then we continued with 1 2 jus..battle between habab b oppo..both of them were very 'cuaks'..hehehe...oppo said 'argh, psycological tortured!!!!! ' ...but habab stay cool with 'gelengan kepala'...hehehehe....ciannyeee....

u noe all of sudden alyn said she wanna do it...then when every body especially habab felt releave….but u noe than alyn passed it up to me..so what to do..

its me that was goin do it..huhuhu..

in da middle of da class da environment seemed glooomy n bord...so i with a little 'outragous'..raised my hand and asked many question..so there was an debate ..da small one..hehehe..just to make class alive n not sleepy..oooo..what a live...

p/s: this post was so long just to share what happend in my day...as i have no gut to share with any body...although it was just simple..i love to tell stories...

...iS iT tRuE...

...wOmAn iS a cOmpLex cReaTuRe...

if u kiss her, u r gentleman...

if u if u don't u r not a man...

if u praise her, she thinks u r lyin...

if u don't, u r good 4 nothing...

if u agree 2 all her likes, u r a wimp...

if u don't, u r not understandin...

if u visit her often, she thinks 'it is' borink...

if u don't, she accuses u of double crossin...

if u r well dressed, she says u r a playboy...

if u don't, u r a dull boy...

if u r jealous, she says 'it is bad'...

if u don't, she thinks u do not love her....

in short....

so simple.....yet so complex....

so weak......yet so powerful...

so confusing......yet so desirable....

so damning.......yet so wonderful.....

.....WOMAN.....

...SanTai...

..CeLeBraTinG..

last nite was really awesome..

hehehe..too bad for those who didnt want to join...hehehe...

13th january acually was rafhana's burfday...that could be contributal to her as da burfday gal...hehehe...da gals coming together were apin, mimi, alia, ika, baie, lyn, eny, imah, surely raf(da burfday gal) n i...

at 1st there was some misunderstanding about da place to have dinner..but at last we arrived at Santai which located aroung Tanjung Lumpur area..da landscape of that restaurant is superb..realy neat n tidy... full of gardening theme...

and of course the food was amazing...mimi n i wanted to taste westrn food so we ordered chicken chop n holicks ace for mimi n apple juice for mimi..

the others wanted to eat together so they ordered siakap stim, siakap grg 3 rasa, telur bungkus, sotong tepung n of course tom yam aka poh tag boh...

while eating we had good talk n chat..every one was very happy...we enjoyed ourselves very much...although we will had our halal & haram quiz this friday n 3 mid term exams next week its like a moment that we run away and take a break from thousands of alphabets n lots of pictures...

special dedication to raf : raf thanx for being my rumate al this while..good to have u hire besides me...although we r not so close but by ur presence next to me makes me fill honour n appreciated...thanx again raf n have a blast burfday!!!...

..12th JaNuaRy..

..FaRiDaH's bUrFdaY...

happy burfday to you...

happy burfday to you...

happy burfday to faridah...

happy burfday to ....you...

hehehe...

its remind me when we were celebrating our survivors burfday....so happennings..

with all da claps n drums (which basiccally the desks n the doors at our classrums...hehehhee)....

its true...when they said that...experience is da best teacher ..n its became so rightous wen it from our own self....

i miss u all survivors..with all da pain , hatred n happyness...

...IM SHOCKED!!!...

..IS IT REALLY TRUE...

nways thanx for those who concern my appearance in da club..since this is almost gives me heart attack...

oh my my...

what m i supose to do...

or what should i do...

who should i refer to...

why no body inform me anythng...

its kind of weird since it took years to hold a post in club or any society...

hopefully i can make every one satisfied with my work...

n

da most important thing is that.... OTTO KAJOOOO????

...PaRenTinG cLaSs...

...BeiNg maRrieD waSn'T iT GooD...

well...this subject is just a complementry subject ..but it seriously should be listen n follow...just in case some of u wanna be mother or father sooner than i thought..

then taafur session was good...hehehe..n very funny...

y was that...

hehehe..the questions were : ur name n nick name...siblings...parents...hometown..n da most interesting is that how or what do u see ur self in 5 years...

its kind of predictanle that every one wishes to get married...n some answers are really straight n i love that..its led u to noe my fren better..n what goal all of them wanna have in future...

n i wish i m gonna be good mother..n good wife...hehehehe...one day...

...TgK WaYanG...

..AvaTar 3D...

wow..it was my 1st time watching 3D movie..hehehe..it was too exiciting from da begining until da end...hehehe...sadly i cant tok pics while wearing the 3d glass...but ruby sempat huuh...begang saye...

hhikhikhik....

well da pic was owesome..seriusly...da story line also ...really inspiring me though...its feel like really close to my heart...cheh...but its from da bottom of my heart...

for those who love nature i strictly advice u to watch this movie...but make sure its 3D n check wether it still available or not...

owh i wish i can expand my excitement more but i dunno how...

thanx to ruby n syirin u guys really made my days... lvu u both...

=)

...LeaSuRe TiMe...

...nO cLaSs + nO LaBs...

hehehehe..its like a heaven when there is neither class nor lab...hehee....im happy of course my frenz too...hahaha..some of them have preprared some sort of activity to fill da day...

da hot idea was planning to panching...have a picnic ...mandi manda...hahaha...(ha ah ek...sounds great...) but since the planning wasnt that good...they struggle like hell to get da car n other alternative to go there..hopefully they are succeed..hehehehe.....

another one is just having picnic at da beach..of course la tc aka teluk cempedak..no need to bring food or drinks just bring money....hehehhee.. kfc n mcd just choose...ahaks....

but for me ....its good being at da rum...nobady will disturb...just having private time here....but im totally lost control for tonite...heheheh...AVATAR 3D ...here i come...hahahahaha....

...wEiRd...

..life is da most complecated n can't be explained...

its true...no matter how much time u explain it ...

it just nothing...

un explainable ...rite....

do u realise that u r changing...

for some changes... they may lead to be better or for some may be bad...

it just how u handle it n wanna make it...

my mind was n always spinning around to read once behavior...

of course it wasnt my special ability to make it happend...

but yet...its happening to me...

the weird thing is that it just make me be some one else..whose not me...

m i that hypocrits or just wanna make some change...so that org x pijak kepala i...

what do u think...