..cOunTinG dAys...part 1(flashback)

Dear all,

For a long silence actually many things happens...i've gone through many things..

Lets start with where i m now.. hihihi from Kuantan my life journey went to JB.. yess JB.. never been there before... right start after grad i presumed at 1st...

After Wawa married i decided to to make a different and Apin's offer sound really good...i need to be at other environment...

Here some of Wawa's photos... or should i make another post for this.. >_<

Yup... wait ok....

So Johor Bharu... i got a job at CTSM... May be influenced by GCAP... Customer Corr Srvc Officer.... not that bad just 100% differ from what i've been studied for 4 years++... hihihi

Well we cant predict where we are... just go with the flow.. for all most 2 years now in AMO Dept its time for me to challenge new atmosphere... yup customer service not restricted to only attertained customer face to face but severals ways...

In AMO, woking at back end process realy thought me lots of really interesting things....

Humans behaviors cannot be predicted but can be evaluate... why???? Just think and observe your surroundings... you can actually know a person that you just meet by eye contact.....nevertheless through emails we can also evaluate how is that person....

Well.... till then...

Xoxo

...heyya....

Salam uols.....

Its beeen long time rite? Almost a year or two i hve not post any thing...

Well as i said before our like is like a cycle..... sometimes we' ll be on top n sometimes we are at the bottom...


Lots to story will update later k..

Stay tune!! Ceh poyo x?? Hahaha


Xoxo

...Survivors 0105...

...12 yEaRs...

Jan 4, 2001..

my 1st day of independence... tarikh ni sgt bermakna... permulaan bg sebuah perjalanan... jauh dari mama n papa... 1st week orientation.. byk kenangan... during that time, we got to meet our CS (College Sister) basically form 5 students at that time they were called "Dragon" if.. im not mistaken... then our BS (body sister) the form 2's which we met in our dorm... in our 1st nite there, we were taught about '5 magic words' which were salam, thank you, sorry, please and excuse me... well enough to be applied for the whole years until now.. hehehe... at that time my CS was Amira Sariyati and BS was Wan Nur Hazimah.. owhh yeah another on GP (Good Peer) the one that we got to choose among our 3 former in our Yellow House members (Siti Zawiyah) and mine was Nur Mashitah Ishak...

a month of full unbelievable memories... i joined netball team n track team... too busy with all training.. i was good to know people.. basically at that time in order for us not to get scolded was to memorized all seniors full n nick names, theirs houses, and classes... tooo much rite.. but it was good.. when we noe them we got to actually gain benefits.. y? bcoz when u were called by any seniors especially 4th formers they will asked u their names n house.. hahaha... i got messed up few times n as for punishment i had to buy food at the canteen... but no offense the list was to longgggggg.... hehehehe...

we had special bond actually with all the form 4's.. we had to showed our talent during our Talent Time Show... i entered 'dikir barat' since i was from kelantan... so i became 'awak2'.. with load voice..hehehe... it was a superb experience.. it actually developed my confidence as i noe i need to be confident n precise in what i do in future.. despite all tortured and scolded we became more in to batch spirit...

being form 1 at that time was extremely i can say crucial... emmm... we got to do lots of things either we want or willingly to do or not... yeahhh.. ragging for sure.. but not that overeacting... hahaha still few seniors got called by the wardens and faced disciplinary fine.. too bad for them.. but at the end we got it back..huh!!!

waking up as early as 5am... took a shower, solat subuh, made our own bed, do room duty (including seniors...hehehehe!!!) .. sent bags to class room, get ready for breakfast (wipe the dinning table although its already been done by the workers, sit straight and wait for doa to be recited..)... then line up for short assembly... entered the class n ready for classes... in the afternoon, go for a lunch... back to dorm... solat zuhur,  have a nap (seriously mengantuk gell!!!)... then got ready for prep... then went for tea n asar prayer... and change clothes for training... oppsss before that.. shower booking 1st... hehehe if not u will be late for dinner and became late comers... back to room n had shower (to get the optimum speed during showering u just make sure ur body wet n upply shampoos n body wash together, brush ur teeth n then busshhhhhh,,,, all waters.. lastly wash ur face..hahahahahaha..)confirm u will be as expressed as a flash....

at dinner we had to line up, 1st for our meal n then for seniors in the same table if u got ***cau table mate...hahahaha... the we ate together as the oldest started 1st then us... eat with manners using fork n spoon... without noise... u can hear no sound at all for 1st 5 minutes... then tinggg toonngggg sscccreedddddd..... n the waited until after meal doa... then rushed to Surau... after mahrib prayer went back to class for nite prep... some of us did homeworks some that discussion, chit chatting if u get lucky without SV (supervisor) basically prefects... then went for supper... backed to dorm and ready to sleep...

buttttt... not yet...

our BS will called us and asked if we had done anything wrongly or what ever.... then we got to sleeppp.... finally....

so basically that was the routine for passes as Form 1 student...


p/s: i have a lot to tell but i think until here then... to all Survivors 0105 I MISSSSSS U ALLL!!!!!!

xoxo - ainnadzri

...2012...

..tHe paSsED!!!...

tahun 2012 byk meninggalkn sejarah pahit dan manis...

antara yg paling terkesan dalam hati ain:

1- x dapat habiskn ape yg dimulakn

2- x dpt grad same2 with all my friends

3- x dpt bg papa n mama ape yg mereka idamkn selama ni

4- x dpt tunaikn hajat yg da lama ain simpan

nnnnn.....

antara perkara yg paling 'regret' :

- die....................


sekian..........

SELAMAT TINGGAL 2012.... kenangan semlm akan tersemat di hati bwt selamanya...

xoxo ainnadzri

... paHit & maNis...

Dia... 

setelah lama x tulis blog jd ni la sbb dan masanya... sebelum ini ain x pernah ceritakan sape dia yg so special n yet do damn bad ass man.. hehehe.. jahatkn bahasa.. sorry couldnt help it..

so starting from 2nd year in matrix... getting to noe stranger quiet amuse me at that time... u can called it blind date.. huhuhuhu.. scary at first but just go with the flow... at first meeting him.. he was some one that was so not in my imagination at all.. u can say good looking.. yeah.. but too naive like me.. hihihi.. y?!! bcoz i can predict what he did upon his action.. well i can be PI rite?.. hehehe

soon.. i got to noe his big family... like a family that i missed n wish to have in future... his mother was so nice despite of her illness, she was diagnosed with kidney disease... she had to go for dialysis 3 x a week.. she so strong struggle to overcome it.. she was the toughest woman that i admired... seriously!!... his father was so generous.. hehehe.. what can i say he got 2 wives... well u can imagine... but the sincerity n responsibility that his father showed touched my heart... what a family that he had.. that actually made me fall in love with him...

it was how i was falling in love with him...

to continue my degree i had to go to main campus in kuantan... we talked... n decided to continue... i had to go and back kuantan to kl.. like once or twice a month... its ok... coz when u r in love ur willing to do anything rite?...

so that's how it goes... few break ups and reconciles hehehe... we still together... we planned to get married... i had some preparation like khusus kawin had taken placed... while he was not yet.. then some for hantaran... then troubles came up.. i had to extend my degree coz of a requirement subject failed... i gave my all try to finish it during short sem but failed again.. then rite now im waiting for final exam.. it is hard for me.. when i couldnt see him for couple of months.. but still we kept in touch...

then my sister said she wanted to get married.. then it was all good from my parents... ok for him.. yeah she got engage last 2 weeks... enough about her..

during my hardship struggle for my degree he wanted to put a stop to our relationship... i was like Allah took my breath away... coz i just met him during the weekend 2 days after that he broke our relationship... i was hurt badly... if anyone n my place may be will kill herself... with out any suspicious thing i said ''ok...kalo abg da bwt keputusan mcm tu... ain da x de ape2 lg nak ckp... janji2 abg selama ni hanya ckp2 kosong sahaja kn?''... he didnt answer it... as far as i noe i didnt do any thing... 

im not writting this post to get attention from anybody just to let go what i feel... im just keeping all this in side me... i thought that one sweet day i will introduce him to u guys as my husband... but i was just a dream... a dream that only me imagining our future... only me... 

when i pm his sister about this... she said he already planned to get married with another woman... the wedding will be some day on March next year... i was TOTALLY cheated with all this and during the whole year that i spend with him... 

inilah pahit & manis yg ain tempuhi sepjg 5 tahun bersamanye... ye die bahagia kerana ade pengganti... x pe lah.. nak bwt mcm mane... selama ni ain yg cube sedaya upaya to make thing relationship work.. but at the end he just buang mcm tu je...

remembering him make me feel how stupid i m... seriously... no words from his family again.. n no wards form him again... that s what i hope from now on...

moving forward is all that i wanna do... finish up my degree n hopefully continuing with master n so on... when this kind of hard ship i faced.. i feel close to my parents more... n especially to HIM... betul ckp ustazah dulu... DIA adalah kekasih kite yg paling unggul...

p/s: girls when ever u feel u were left alone... No HE actually next to u.. just have faith and continuously pray...

xoxo : ainnadzri  

...Ustaz Zapin...

Salam,

last wednesday i got a text from my bro eddy, he asked me whether i was free or not on Saturday free or not... so i was like ''Y?.. is there anything u want from me? akak free je''... so he replied ''no..on saturday nite a de teater at ump gambang.. nak tgk x?'' so i got excited n asked about the details...hehehehe

so last nite i went there with ayu..a little bit late but alhamdulillah i just started.. i feel like watching my play when i was in college...hehehe... da whole play was good although there some problem with sound system... the heroine was so beautiful n she remained me of a girl that sung at dinner when i was there last year for Symbion 2011.. hehehe.. she really is the singer... so sweet... its was a musical theater ... there was a group of zapin dancers... so cliche with my play during junior days..heheheh..

i got shocked when i saw eddy..wahh.. i never believed that he really that good..hehehe.. although he was only the supporting cast but it was really  AWESOME + DAEBAK!!!!!!!!... thumbs up bro!!!!

hehehe.. it was good....

love,
xoxo.

... tHe 1St n The LasT...

salam,

yesterday 5th May 2012... i had a wonderful moment ... i feel like i was in college time..having fun with juniors and friends on the field... playing around.. but this time mixed.. boys n gurls.. hehehe.. previously while in college we only have sisters but now differ.... it was so fun and good to release tension.. since it was my 1st and last... in final semester ...i wish to attend as many event as possible.. any time that i feel available..hehehe... Uskhwah Day Sciencess 2012.. so happy...

we were divided in few groups.. so i was in Coral (orange)..hehehe...yeay..we got da best house.. 1st placed!!!! yyooohhooo!!! hehehe...

i was really excited since da day before.. unfortunately my besties could not join... some of them went home, some of them had a vacation with family and some of them had unfinished job n some had not known where about..huhuhuhu..(SAD).. T_T.

but Coralians made me happy all day...hehehe.. we had lots of game like explorace, war fight, tug of war, 'baling selipar'... puzzle memory (i was in da game n got 1st place ...yey!!!)... fishing bottles and many more..

hehehe.. so much fun n i cant describe it well.. u guys should experience them all by urself...hehehehe

here some picas that i wanna share with u.. hopefully u guys gonna like it hehehee..

...tug of war team..

..baling selipar team...

..beauty coralians..

...team mates for puzzle memory...

..Leha n Me..

so thats all...

love,

xoxo

...wisH LisTs...

salam...

hey there,,, ehheeemmm... u noe what... guys always say that girls are too demanding.... n sometime can be cruel and too particular about very..very ... simple little things...
but they didnt noe that that particular and very simple little thing is actually really2 big and important...
hehehe..

im also a girl dude...
sometime u dont noe either what u chose is suitable or not for u...

yeah..

some girls really take care of their belonging and also what they want in future...
i noe its just a simple matter to talk about yet it can be really bombastic news for u though....
so...

u guys for sure have some thing that u want in your life rite... so .. do.. i..

hehehe..

may be its lame n too childish but its fun though to fill da emptiness in your life...its like u r dreaming to get something...
hehehe...

so here goes some of my wish lists: =)

Sony X Peria Neo L

BMW X5

emmm... what u guys thing?.. is it possible or impossible???

love,
xoxo

...wHen sEnsiTiviTy eXpLODED..

salam..
this post MIGHT be HARSH!!

after all year being together..this is how u pay me..
after all worries n troubles u made..
after all hardship for me to adapt to u..
after all things that i have done to u...

after all...

after all...

im no one to u...

love....

...deMaM...

salam..

its been 3 days now..argggehhh.. cepat la baik...

cepat penat... cepat terasa.. cepat marah...

symptoms when fever attack...

huhuhuhuhu...

days like this, i wish for mama to be next to me...
mama.. i miss u so much....
or him...

love, xoxo.

... woNdeRiNg ...

salam dear,

so today i had finished 1st batch of my research...well the research basically about potential plant that give quick respond toward abnormalities surrounding it.. so far i had treat 21 types of plants from different species... ermm.. only few give +ve respond... huhuhuhu

so what came out in my mind on my way back from the lab was that...how did u value ur friend? did u tell him/her ur feeling towards them as a friend? treat them like ur own siblings to show appreciation? fetch them as near as u can so that u wont give hardness/difficulty to them? text them non stop? treat them breakfast or lunch or dinner or supper? talk to them when u feel sorrow? or 'back mouth' them?

since u r close to that 'friend'... should u treat them like that? ...

memang muka tembok la kn..sigh~~

people... just treat ur friend like u r like to be treated... just think positively although u noe them not like others... be fair for yourself...

p/s: this post only for my crammed mind... >_<

love, xoxo

...FyDah & FarHanT soLemnizaTioN..

salam...
since 2001 until 2005 i've known her.. we were in the same dorm Ixora in the 1st year in college together with fatinsham... for 1year and another year in kesidang... so funny n 'eyot' when memorizing all those memories back... hehehe.. i bet all my friend still remember...

but then we already aging and some of us had been changing from thin 'mcm lidi' to big 'gemuk@berisi'..some still maintain although have been married.. so good rite... congratez guys!!!! cant wait for mine..hehehehe

i wanna share to u my friend's solemnization that i hardly attended last month..hehehe.. never been on my other friend wedding days before.. it was so good to meet old friend...

nway Congratulation fydah n farhant!!!!... wish u all happiness and make sure dont lost contact... FB ada maaa... hehehe

here some pics...

..aBg eDDy & kAk aIDa wEdDing Day..

salam..
this post is suppose to be display long time ago..huhuhuhu..but still the memories still here...
it was unforgettable moment where for the first time i went to apin's house in ayer hitam.. i got excited as she asked me to accompanied her to join 'rewang' for epul's bro, abg eddy's solemnization.. so we went there .. we as in apin, dija, liz n i...hehehe..

of course we still went other places like parit raja since all of us wanna buy kerepek...hehehe...at first afzan was with us but she went to UTHM to met her friends there... it was my first time tooo.. being at the UTHM seemed like being in industrial area where there were few factories and road full of 'lopak'.. but then its good too see other university and experience our own culture since i've never been on 'rewang' for my cousins' wedding days...

thanx apin for bringing me here..wish to go there again..

love,
xoxo

..uPdaTes..

salam darls,
sooo soorryyy for da loonnggg silence...
hehehe.. life was so hectic for pass few months..
so now is the rite time to reactivate my self to write on..hehehe
so i just came back from ayer hitam... apin's home town...
for those who never been there make sure take a trip there..
ok?. especially to newly weds..bcoz there are alot of stall which good to survey or shopping for ur upcoming reception..seriously..
i already done it..it was worth it..
next time im gonna bring him along..so that i can just buy it..
of course la "BANKER" da adekn..hehehe...
soorryyy..not mata duitan or pisau cukur .. it just.. come on u noe what mean rite..

lots of my friend already got married.. hehehe.. of course tringin jugak..
xkn nak couple je kn...
btw i already got my pre-marriage cert...
need to prepare early rite?..

so to be continue...

love,
xoxo

..MiSS u BabY!!!!!!...

salam...
its good to be able to write again..
huhuhuhuhu..
so many things happen..
from the day that i finished my internship..
new sem for final year..
papa diagnosed for minor stroke..
ali, emi and ilah finished their UPSR, PMR and SPM exams..
school holidays..
mid term exams and coming soon enough end of semester exam..
final year project..
project seminar presentation with Lina, oPpo n me..
trip to Sg.Panching waterfall with Taekwando Club..
a trip to Apin's House in Air Hitam..
and next function gonna be AGD SCIENCESS..
hehehe too many to story morry..
but dont be sad baby..coz i'll filled up all da pictures and videos...
YEAHhh sure just for u...

p/s: still i have to finish my lab reports and assignments..plus final presentation...

...nervous...

salam..

less than a week im gonna enter new world.

huhuhuhu.

how m i gonna be then...

hopefully everything is good though..

serious.

donno what to say...

rrrrrrrr

.almost there..

salam.

hi its been ;like ages im not postng any thing hire..

so..

im already done with da 3rd year..

moving on to 4th year as biotech student..

hehehe..

just a year..

lots of thing happened n its good actually.. 

half part of me still remain childish ..hehehe

but another half totally reformed..

huhuhuhu

hapofully everything goes smothly..

next 2 weeks im gonna start my internship..

i really looking forward on that.hihihihi

 til then..

..Fitrah alam..

...syahdu...

salam..
post kali ni nak ckp dalam bahasa melayu..

pagi ni syahdu je..
rasa nyaman..
sejuk tp mendamaikan jiwa..

bunyi burung2 bwtkn aku rasa mcm kat kampung 12 tahun yg lalu..
sukar nak digambarkn kembali..

waktu tu rasa seronok sgt bile balik kg..
dulu lain sekarang lan kn..

waktu dulu x boleh diundur lagi..

nape mcm tu ea..
rasa mcm semlm je aku ade kat kg..

tambah2 lg suasana mcm ni buat aku rindu..

rindu pada kedamaian yg ade kat kg..
kat sini rasa..
tp waktu kat kg akan rasa lg seronok ..

kampungku yg hanye tinggal kg..
sejak arwah pergi..ntah ape yg jd pd rumah tu..
harta memang akan jd rebutan ke pada saudara mara..

bukan ke kite patut kongsi...

aku rindu kampung yg dulu..

ya allah kau lindungilah arwah nenek ku di sana..
begitu juga dgn arwah pak ndak ku..
sesunguhnya Kau yg maha esa dan maha pengasihani..
aku rindu dgn mereka ..kau tempatkn lah mereka di kalangan makhluk mu yg Engkau sayangi...
amin...

..TeNnis OpeN tOurNamenT..

...No SkiLl..YeAH!!!..

..inTenSiVe TraiNinG 2011..

..awesome...BesT GeLL!!!!..

salam..

last saturday, we, da taekwando club members had made Intensive training program...

at 1st we got worry bcoz da world in chaos rite now..

u must already heard about japan's earth wake and tsunami..

it was just devastated..

seriously it affected our country...

in kuantan we had continuous raining..

but alhamdulillah that morning we only had light rain..

we were really great full that we had 2 committed coach ..alang n faisal..hehehehe..

da training was not a usual training..

basically i can say that it was tremendous, weird but it was true n really getting our nerve uncontrollable...

hehehehe..

we started late but da impact really despicable..

really.. for those who missed it ..too bad for u guys..

n for those who came..u guys having fun rite...hehehehehe

thanx to kak fahima n salam for taking care of our food..

kimi our money holder .hehehehe..

syuk, huda, haikal, nadia, nabila, amira n da geng..

thanx guys..it was really unforgettable moment...

hope to have this kind of program in da future..

love u guys..