..cOunTinG dAys...part 1(flashback)

Dear all,

For a long silence actually many things happens...i've gone through many things..

Lets start with where i m now.. hihihi from Kuantan my life journey went to JB.. yess JB.. never been there before... right start after grad i presumed at 1st...

After Wawa married i decided to to make a different and Apin's offer sound really good...i need to be at other environment...

Here some of Wawa's photos... or should i make another post for this.. >_<

Yup... wait ok....

So Johor Bharu... i got a job at CTSM... May be influenced by GCAP... Customer Corr Srvc Officer.... not that bad just 100% differ from what i've been studied for 4 years++... hihihi

Well we cant predict where we are... just go with the flow.. for all most 2 years now in AMO Dept its time for me to challenge new atmosphere... yup customer service not restricted to only attertained customer face to face but severals ways...

In AMO, woking at back end process realy thought me lots of really interesting things....

Humans behaviors cannot be predicted but can be evaluate... why???? Just think and observe your surroundings... you can actually know a person that you just meet by eye contact.....nevertheless through emails we can also evaluate how is that person....

Well.... till then...

Xoxo

...heyya....

Salam uols.....

Its beeen long time rite? Almost a year or two i hve not post any thing...

Well as i said before our like is like a cycle..... sometimes we' ll be on top n sometimes we are at the bottom...


Lots to story will update later k..

Stay tune!! Ceh poyo x?? Hahaha


Xoxo

...Survivors 0105...

...12 yEaRs...

Jan 4, 2001..

my 1st day of independence... tarikh ni sgt bermakna... permulaan bg sebuah perjalanan... jauh dari mama n papa... 1st week orientation.. byk kenangan... during that time, we got to meet our CS (College Sister) basically form 5 students at that time they were called "Dragon" if.. im not mistaken... then our BS (body sister) the form 2's which we met in our dorm... in our 1st nite there, we were taught about '5 magic words' which were salam, thank you, sorry, please and excuse me... well enough to be applied for the whole years until now.. hehehe... at that time my CS was Amira Sariyati and BS was Wan Nur Hazimah.. owhh yeah another on GP (Good Peer) the one that we got to choose among our 3 former in our Yellow House members (Siti Zawiyah) and mine was Nur Mashitah Ishak...

a month of full unbelievable memories... i joined netball team n track team... too busy with all training.. i was good to know people.. basically at that time in order for us not to get scolded was to memorized all seniors full n nick names, theirs houses, and classes... tooo much rite.. but it was good.. when we noe them we got to actually gain benefits.. y? bcoz when u were called by any seniors especially 4th formers they will asked u their names n house.. hahaha... i got messed up few times n as for punishment i had to buy food at the canteen... but no offense the list was to longgggggg.... hehehehe...

we had special bond actually with all the form 4's.. we had to showed our talent during our Talent Time Show... i entered 'dikir barat' since i was from kelantan... so i became 'awak2'.. with load voice..hehehe... it was a superb experience.. it actually developed my confidence as i noe i need to be confident n precise in what i do in future.. despite all tortured and scolded we became more in to batch spirit...

being form 1 at that time was extremely i can say crucial... emmm... we got to do lots of things either we want or willingly to do or not... yeahhh.. ragging for sure.. but not that overeacting... hahaha still few seniors got called by the wardens and faced disciplinary fine.. too bad for them.. but at the end we got it back..huh!!!

waking up as early as 5am... took a shower, solat subuh, made our own bed, do room duty (including seniors...hehehehe!!!) .. sent bags to class room, get ready for breakfast (wipe the dinning table although its already been done by the workers, sit straight and wait for doa to be recited..)... then line up for short assembly... entered the class n ready for classes... in the afternoon, go for a lunch... back to dorm... solat zuhur,  have a nap (seriously mengantuk gell!!!)... then got ready for prep... then went for tea n asar prayer... and change clothes for training... oppsss before that.. shower booking 1st... hehehe if not u will be late for dinner and became late comers... back to room n had shower (to get the optimum speed during showering u just make sure ur body wet n upply shampoos n body wash together, brush ur teeth n then busshhhhhh,,,, all waters.. lastly wash ur face..hahahahahaha..)confirm u will be as expressed as a flash....

at dinner we had to line up, 1st for our meal n then for seniors in the same table if u got ***cau table mate...hahahaha... the we ate together as the oldest started 1st then us... eat with manners using fork n spoon... without noise... u can hear no sound at all for 1st 5 minutes... then tinggg toonngggg sscccreedddddd..... n the waited until after meal doa... then rushed to Surau... after mahrib prayer went back to class for nite prep... some of us did homeworks some that discussion, chit chatting if u get lucky without SV (supervisor) basically prefects... then went for supper... backed to dorm and ready to sleep...

buttttt... not yet...

our BS will called us and asked if we had done anything wrongly or what ever.... then we got to sleeppp.... finally....

so basically that was the routine for passes as Form 1 student...


p/s: i have a lot to tell but i think until here then... to all Survivors 0105 I MISSSSSS U ALLL!!!!!!

xoxo - ainnadzri

...2012...

..tHe paSsED!!!...

tahun 2012 byk meninggalkn sejarah pahit dan manis...

antara yg paling terkesan dalam hati ain:

1- x dapat habiskn ape yg dimulakn

2- x dpt grad same2 with all my friends

3- x dpt bg papa n mama ape yg mereka idamkn selama ni

4- x dpt tunaikn hajat yg da lama ain simpan

nnnnn.....

antara perkara yg paling 'regret' :

- die....................


sekian..........

SELAMAT TINGGAL 2012.... kenangan semlm akan tersemat di hati bwt selamanya...

xoxo ainnadzri

... paHit & maNis...

Dia... 

setelah lama x tulis blog jd ni la sbb dan masanya... sebelum ini ain x pernah ceritakan sape dia yg so special n yet do damn bad ass man.. hehehe.. jahatkn bahasa.. sorry couldnt help it..

so starting from 2nd year in matrix... getting to noe stranger quiet amuse me at that time... u can called it blind date.. huhuhuhu.. scary at first but just go with the flow... at first meeting him.. he was some one that was so not in my imagination at all.. u can say good looking.. yeah.. but too naive like me.. hihihi.. y?!! bcoz i can predict what he did upon his action.. well i can be PI rite?.. hehehe

soon.. i got to noe his big family... like a family that i missed n wish to have in future... his mother was so nice despite of her illness, she was diagnosed with kidney disease... she had to go for dialysis 3 x a week.. she so strong struggle to overcome it.. she was the toughest woman that i admired... seriously!!... his father was so generous.. hehehe.. what can i say he got 2 wives... well u can imagine... but the sincerity n responsibility that his father showed touched my heart... what a family that he had.. that actually made me fall in love with him...

it was how i was falling in love with him...

to continue my degree i had to go to main campus in kuantan... we talked... n decided to continue... i had to go and back kuantan to kl.. like once or twice a month... its ok... coz when u r in love ur willing to do anything rite?...

so that's how it goes... few break ups and reconciles hehehe... we still together... we planned to get married... i had some preparation like khusus kawin had taken placed... while he was not yet.. then some for hantaran... then troubles came up.. i had to extend my degree coz of a requirement subject failed... i gave my all try to finish it during short sem but failed again.. then rite now im waiting for final exam.. it is hard for me.. when i couldnt see him for couple of months.. but still we kept in touch...

then my sister said she wanted to get married.. then it was all good from my parents... ok for him.. yeah she got engage last 2 weeks... enough about her..

during my hardship struggle for my degree he wanted to put a stop to our relationship... i was like Allah took my breath away... coz i just met him during the weekend 2 days after that he broke our relationship... i was hurt badly... if anyone n my place may be will kill herself... with out any suspicious thing i said ''ok...kalo abg da bwt keputusan mcm tu... ain da x de ape2 lg nak ckp... janji2 abg selama ni hanya ckp2 kosong sahaja kn?''... he didnt answer it... as far as i noe i didnt do any thing... 

im not writting this post to get attention from anybody just to let go what i feel... im just keeping all this in side me... i thought that one sweet day i will introduce him to u guys as my husband... but i was just a dream... a dream that only me imagining our future... only me... 

when i pm his sister about this... she said he already planned to get married with another woman... the wedding will be some day on March next year... i was TOTALLY cheated with all this and during the whole year that i spend with him... 

inilah pahit & manis yg ain tempuhi sepjg 5 tahun bersamanye... ye die bahagia kerana ade pengganti... x pe lah.. nak bwt mcm mane... selama ni ain yg cube sedaya upaya to make thing relationship work.. but at the end he just buang mcm tu je...

remembering him make me feel how stupid i m... seriously... no words from his family again.. n no wards form him again... that s what i hope from now on...

moving forward is all that i wanna do... finish up my degree n hopefully continuing with master n so on... when this kind of hard ship i faced.. i feel close to my parents more... n especially to HIM... betul ckp ustazah dulu... DIA adalah kekasih kite yg paling unggul...

p/s: girls when ever u feel u were left alone... No HE actually next to u.. just have faith and continuously pray...

xoxo : ainnadzri  

...Ustaz Zapin...

Salam,

last wednesday i got a text from my bro eddy, he asked me whether i was free or not on Saturday free or not... so i was like ''Y?.. is there anything u want from me? akak free je''... so he replied ''no..on saturday nite a de teater at ump gambang.. nak tgk x?'' so i got excited n asked about the details...hehehehe

so last nite i went there with ayu..a little bit late but alhamdulillah i just started.. i feel like watching my play when i was in college...hehehe... da whole play was good although there some problem with sound system... the heroine was so beautiful n she remained me of a girl that sung at dinner when i was there last year for Symbion 2011.. hehehe.. she really is the singer... so sweet... its was a musical theater ... there was a group of zapin dancers... so cliche with my play during junior days..heheheh..

i got shocked when i saw eddy..wahh.. i never believed that he really that good..hehehe.. although he was only the supporting cast but it was really  AWESOME + DAEBAK!!!!!!!!... thumbs up bro!!!!

hehehe.. it was good....

love,
xoxo.

... tHe 1St n The LasT...

salam,

yesterday 5th May 2012... i had a wonderful moment ... i feel like i was in college time..having fun with juniors and friends on the field... playing around.. but this time mixed.. boys n gurls.. hehehe.. previously while in college we only have sisters but now differ.... it was so fun and good to release tension.. since it was my 1st and last... in final semester ...i wish to attend as many event as possible.. any time that i feel available..hehehe... Uskhwah Day Sciencess 2012.. so happy...

we were divided in few groups.. so i was in Coral (orange)..hehehe...yeay..we got da best house.. 1st placed!!!! yyooohhooo!!! hehehe...

i was really excited since da day before.. unfortunately my besties could not join... some of them went home, some of them had a vacation with family and some of them had unfinished job n some had not known where about..huhuhuhu..(SAD).. T_T.

but Coralians made me happy all day...hehehe.. we had lots of game like explorace, war fight, tug of war, 'baling selipar'... puzzle memory (i was in da game n got 1st place ...yey!!!)... fishing bottles and many more..

hehehe.. so much fun n i cant describe it well.. u guys should experience them all by urself...hehehehe

here some picas that i wanna share with u.. hopefully u guys gonna like it hehehee..

...tug of war team..

..baling selipar team...

..beauty coralians..

...team mates for puzzle memory...

..Leha n Me..

so thats all...

love,

xoxo