...ain...

..MiSS u BabY!!!!!!...

2011-12-12T08:40:00.000-08:00

salam...
its good to be able to write again..
huhuhuhuhu..
so many things happen..
from the day that i finished my internship..
new sem for final year..
papa diagnosed for minor stroke..
ali, emi and ilah finished their UPSR, PMR and SPM exams..
school holidays..
mid term exams and coming soon enough end of semester exam..
final year project..
project seminar presentation with Lina, oPpo n me..
trip to Sg.Panching waterfall with Taekwando Club..
a trip to Apin's House in Air Hitam..
and next function gonna be AGD SCIENCESS..
hehehe too many to story morry..
but dont be sad baby..coz i'll filled up all da pictures and videos...
YEAHhh sure just for u...

p/s: still i have to finish my lab reports and assignments..plus final presentation...

...nervous...

2011-04-26T23:27:00.000-07:00

salam..

less than a week im gonna enter new world.

huhuhuhu.

how m i gonna be then...

hopefully everything is good though..

serious.

donno what to say...

rrrrrrrr

.almost there..

2011-04-20T01:10:00.001-07:00

salam.

hi its been ;like ages im not postng any thing hire..

so..

im already done with da 3rd year..

moving on to 4th year as biotech student..

hehehe..

just a year..

lots of thing happened n its good actually..

half part of me still remain childish ..hehehe

but another half totally reformed..

huhuhuhu

hapofully everything goes smothly..

next 2 weeks im gonna start my internship..

i really looking forward on that.hihihihi

til then..

..Fitrah alam..

2011-03-20T16:25:00.000-07:00

...syahdu...

salam..
post kali ni nak ckp dalam bahasa melayu..

pagi ni syahdu je..
rasa nyaman..
sejuk tp mendamaikan jiwa..

bunyi burung2 bwtkn aku rasa mcm kat kampung 12 tahun yg lalu..
sukar nak digambarkn kembali..

waktu tu rasa seronok sgt bile balik kg..
dulu lain sekarang lan kn..

waktu dulu x boleh diundur lagi..

nape mcm tu ea..
rasa mcm semlm je aku ade kat kg..

tambah2 lg suasana mcm ni buat aku rindu..

rindu pada kedamaian yg ade kat kg..
kat sini rasa..
tp waktu kat kg akan rasa lg seronok ..

kampungku yg hanye tinggal kg..
sejak arwah pergi..ntah ape yg jd pd rumah tu..
harta memang akan jd rebutan ke pada saudara mara..

bukan ke kite patut kongsi...

aku rindu kampung yg dulu..

ya allah kau lindungilah arwah nenek ku di sana..
begitu juga dgn arwah pak ndak ku..
sesunguhnya Kau yg maha esa dan maha pengasihani..
aku rindu dgn mereka ..kau tempatkn lah mereka di kalangan makhluk mu yg Engkau sayangi...
amin...

..TeNnis OpeN tOurNamenT..

2011-03-20T16:14:00.000-07:00

...No SkiLl..YeAH!!!..

..inTenSiVe TraiNinG 2011..

2011-03-14T01:09:00.000-07:00

..awesome...BesT GeLL!!!!..

salam..

last saturday, we, da taekwando club members had made Intensive training program...

at 1st we got worry bcoz da world in chaos rite now..

u must already heard about japan's earth wake and tsunami..

it was just devastated..

seriously it affected our country...

in kuantan we had continuous raining..

but alhamdulillah that morning we only had light rain..

we were really great full that we had 2 committed coach ..alang n faisal..hehehehe..

da training was not a usual training..

basically i can say that it was tremendous, weird but it was true n really getting our nerve uncontrollable...

hehehehe..

we started late but da impact really despicable..

really.. for those who missed it ..too bad for u guys..

n for those who came..u guys having fun rite...hehehehehe

thanx to kak fahima n salam for taking care of our food..

kimi our money holder .hehehehe..

syuk, huda, haikal, nadia, nabila, amira n da geng..

thanx guys..it was really unforgettable moment...

hope to have this kind of program in da future..

love u guys..

.. i jUsT DonT unDersTAnD!!!!

2011-03-09T16:46:00.000-08:00

...??????....

salam..

how would u feel when u r frustrated..

or what if u r not satisfied with someone..

or what if u angry with someone.

arrgghhhh...

i just cant see his/her face rite now..

seriously ..

please dont make me revealed my temper...

i dont wanna show it..

but sometme it just cannot control..

it came out naturally..

it really make me feel afraid..

i love u..

but the way u took make me mad..

BADLY MAd..

arrgghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....

..SampLing AgaIn..

2011-03-01T22:24:00.000-08:00

..iNsTiTuTe BioDiveRsiTy, Krau & DeeRLanD..

salam..

hehehe..i guest may be this was the last field trip for us..yesterday we went to Institute Biodicversiti in lancand, pahang... its actually a government institution that concerned on preservation and conservation of animals and plants also ecosystem in reserved forest in malaysia which are under federal constitution..

at first arrived we had our morning tea, after 2 hours journey.. then we went to the conferences room to hear a talk on the current status of malaysian biodiversity...

then we went to the campaign park to collect some insects, butterfly and etc...since it is a restricted area we could not take alot like before...only selected insects and plant species were allowed to be taken..

then we had our lunch..honestly the lunch there was better then the previous one..hehehehe..after then we had our prayer...

around 2.30 pm we were divided in to 2 group which one would be entered information room while onother one would be in the museum..

my group 1st entered the information room...we were explained more on the concept of biodiversity that the PERHILITAN applied in preservation n conservation..there were many fosters exhibited for the tourist and as for student there are lots of useful information.. other than that we were introduced to the preserved animals like tiger, crocodile and also a fractures of sumatra rhinos..

there also exhibits lots of the 'org asli' tools for hunting and traps..since most of us really excited and also not to mention over excited and made them tired..hahahahaha...

then we exchanged with another group..as son as we entered the museum..every faces stunned and shocked..there were lots of preserved mammalians, reptiles, insects and etc...the most unforgettable one are the shelves off preserved bats, frogs, snakes or even rats were placed there...

after some time there...we were gathered at the lobby.. then we moved to the Deerland..

in deerland we were given opportunity to fed the deers..so many..n there also an ostrich..hehehe the best part was that the ostrich kind of like to provoked peeps when it saw us..so nobody like screaming when it came or approached us..hahahaha...then we took some pictures..

in deerland also have few cages that contain peacock, snake, bear and otter.. at snake cage we were allowed to hold it and took pictures..for some of the sisters who afraid to hold it , they just sit and watched others..then at the bear cage..the bear was fed by one of the guardian.. it was an awesome experience..

we were sad bcoz we cant go to kuala gandah ... since its already late...so we missed the chance to ride on the elephants there..huhuhuhuhu..

till then...

..hoPeLeSs...

2011-02-28T08:01:00.000-08:00

...aSsigNmenT...gRoup wOrk...ProPosaL...

salam...

why did the time run so fast?...

im sure some of us have been thinking about it..

actually ... we have to manage our time smartly..

me as student ..some time do work at the very last minutes..

when i think again it actually such a waste..

as time passes by n my age also had added..hehehe...i ask my self what actually i want in my life..

if i was asked his kind of question before..i would answer..what ever i had started something i must finish it no matter what happen..and the outcome some achievable n some just moderate..

so friends...

we should appreciate our time more than our lover...honestly it what i do... divide the time according to the priority and schedule what to do..so that nothing will be miss ...

ok..

smile always..=)

..tImE...

2011-02-19T07:38:00.000-08:00

...iS iT sO daMn pRiceLeSs?????...

salam...

since i was so buzy to post new post so here sum up..most of da things that happened to me...

15 February 2011...

i went to chini lake for taking some sample for biodiversity lab..what to do..it a must for all environmentalists to take sample and identify all those sample and make a count to all species that can be found there...its too many but alhamdulillah we managed to have some of them...chini lake is too big.. the locals introduced us to 12 'laut' which actually da name that the 'org asli' called that lake...some of the lake had its own story behind..next time i will tell u about it...the trip was so tiring...we had canoe as for taking sample in the lake and its surroundings...after we had our lunch, we went back to college and enter da lab to keep the sample and few of them we preserved them...it was so wonderful n i really love da environment...

16 February 2011

despite a long journey from chini lake..i had EOP exam..huh!!!...''love'' it...

17 February 2011..

if u think i crazy yeah it was it then...class from 3pm to 6pm ..really challenge my patient....aaarrggghhhh.....

what to do...its my duty to attends all those lectures...its really time constrained..and at nite i had taekwando training..huhuhuhu...fitness again..all my muscles ache...and my knee..i dont noe its condition...i fell down again..unconsciously..huhuhuhu..may be its time for me to stop..but i dont noe...its too hard to leave to responsibility just like that...if u in my place what should u do?...

18 February 2011

i cant sleep da whole nite coz i was afraid that i would be overslept...4 oclock in da morning...went to iium gombak to attend Environmental Law & Policies ''special'' class..it was so exciting bcoz it was da 1st time we met ur lecturer face to face..huhuhuhuhu.=)...she was so kind hearted and simple...just like we saw in video conference...hehehee...we had a short lecture...some games or team work with law students..got to noe each other and had lunch to gether..the most exciting part for me was i got to met naza..my exrumate at pj...hehehehe..naza miss u babe..too bad i didnt had chance to meet my college friends..may they were not around at that time..huhuhuhu..then around 8 we departed from iium gombak to ium kuantan..huhuhuhu..the journey taken place in village routs..so the road not like in high way..i dont noe why..but its ok as long as we were safe...

so that t for now..huhuhuhuhu...cant write long or elaborate more coz i have another 2 mid term papers awaiting for me next week..wish me luck...

...haPpy BirThdaY to Me..

2011-02-13T05:52:00.000-08:00

...23 yEaRs oF LiviNg...

salam...

tomorrow will be my day of birth...

as 23 years passed..

i've been through lot of things...

sadness, loneliness, happiness...

being a student and also a daughter..

its da hardest thing or roles to play..

hopefully,...

in future...

i wanna be more precious to other people surrounding me...

especially to my love ones...

thanx for all those presents..

i really2...

appreciate all of them..

insyaallah i'll wear them...if its necessary...

lastly..

'ain happy birthday!!!'

...miSsing Home...

2011-02-05T10:13:00.000-08:00

..DidN't eVen fEel tHe hoLs aT aLl ... huhuhuhu..

salam...

just 3 days n 3 nites at home..

da shortest hols ever...huuu..

papa..mama..kakak miss u both...

only my heart can exclaimed what in side me..

..17th IIUM Taekwando Open Tournament...

2011-01-30T18:24:00.000-08:00

..besT & haPpening,,

salam...
last weekend on 29 n 30 jan was da most excited days in my life..da tournament that i really missed n yet entered it..although at 1st i felt hesitated...but then its da most memorable one..hehehehe

being IIUM student made me feel da islamic brotherhood..y???...since i left pj campus i couldnt manage to go there n visited or training taekwando with other members da envronment there was awesome ..i really2 miss that...hence our club members only had training inside da gym instead of training at open space...

hehehe...da best part was when we gathered with our junior in CenFos....they were really happening...'sume otak ting tong'..hahahaha.adip...acap...loqman..nasrin...shahir..faris..n more ...sisters.sakinah, syarifah sakinah, nadia, chaa, nazat n more..hehehehe..sonok jumpe n kenal korang..next ime we will meet again..

hehehehe...congrates to all..thanx to syuk our tem manager...hafin, wan hafiz n zaidi ..its ok u guys da buat da best...amirah n nabila too..cma n i got bronze..its ok..next time guys we gonna ave silver or gold medals...YYEEAAAHHH!!!!..

..BLUE Day...

2011-01-25T20:08:00.000-08:00

...FeLt LikE BeFore...

salam..

Sem 2 2010/2011..

we gathered again...

miss da old time..

serious...

we had our own path now..

but class united us back..

although we only can meet each other once a week..

its enough for me...

oppo, lina, zati n wanis ..

love u guys so much...

im da one that took envi though..

miss u guys company..

hehehehe...

...BioDiVersiTy...

2011-01-25T19:50:00.000-08:00

..Lab SeSsioN -identification-..

salam..

yesterday i had lab...it was session from last week sampling activity..

my group n i must identified certain insect that we had catched...

not many but enough for us to do aa report which will be accumulating the biodiversity of Panching area...

some of the insect that we catched, we preserved it with alcohol..n some not...

identification of species is not that easy...

we hd to go through all da references in order to noe da class, order, phylum, family n da species name..

it is a load of work that we have to do ..

bcoz we have to submit da report at da end of da sem...

it is hard but we will try our best to get the good one...

insyaallah...

so since this sem i had separated from clicks..

so i want to introduce to u my group members for Biodiversity subject...

we had done several group works included getting smples from tanjung lumpur n panching, identification of them during lab session..n next we gonna sit together n discuss our report..

soon we will had another trips for sampling..da places had been decided but our lab demo didnt mention the place name..

he said that gonna be surprise for us..hehehehehe..

cant wait for that...

...iNsiDe mE...

2011-01-24T19:22:00.000-08:00

..buTterfLy..

salam...

life is like a wheel..
when we r on da top we will then be at da bottom...

before...i could feel the warmness of friendship..
theres a hug to hold up my tears...
theres a hand to support me when im lost n alone..
theres persons or friend who would keep me accompanied...

where i be i can feel it..

as time goes by...
some decrease..
the warm became solder n colder...
the tight became looser n looser...
where are u...

as time change.. people also change...

sometimes the loneliness creeps me out..
although in class with all da classmates..
my tears came out...from nowhere...
its good to see people concern n care to one another..
but..

being independence is not that easy...
i always mingle around friends...
but when im alone ..
the sorrow accompanied me..
the tears cheer me up..

m i too easy to be forgotten...
m i that bad that nobody seen my presence...
m i like that...

mama..i miss u...

..NaTuraL ResOuRces N maNaGemenT...

2011-01-24T09:38:00.000-08:00

..PosTer PresenTatiOn..

salam..

da day has come..we were more prepared compared to before..

alhamdulillah da presentation went smoothly ... still there was something that need to be corrected n touch up again..

i would like to express my greatest gratitude to all my group members..

'babes!!! uols ROCK!!!!'

hehehe..

basically our group made some research n report about the conservation and management of endangered marine species in Malaysia.. da topic is general...so we manage to prepared the report well ..insyaallah..

endangered marine species include leatherback turtes, green sea turtle etc...there r many ways to conserve endangered marine species in malaysia..and there also many association either government or non government bodies involved...

generally knwledge that i can share with u is that malaysia in collaboration of filipins n Indonesia are running a program called Coral triangle...this program is organised to conserve the marine creature especially those that expose to danger..while management of endangered marine apecies are also important in order to maintain the species diversity...

..NaTuraL ResOuRces N maNaGemenT...

2011-01-24T09:24:00.000-08:00

..PosTer PresenTatiOn...(in the making)

salam..

the picture above is the result of our assignment on NRM subject..hehehe

so colorful rite??

my group mates are oppo, lina, wanis n zati..

believe it or not we were just finished it in a nite..

that is our record.hihihi...

stay up until 4 oclock n da next day was the presentation day ..was really or NEVER cross in my mind..

honostly we were so 'cuak'..hehehe

thankfulluy we will do it next week on monday..huhuhuhuhu

..PeopLe'S PeRcepTioN..

2011-01-21T17:43:00.001-08:00

salam...

lots of interpretation will be thrown apart from da 1st impression..

same goes with da assumption, perception or opinion regarding da matter in discuss..

there are different types of ways to convey those perception...

some may be in melancholic, criticism or sarcastic..

to be rational...

all of those will be various impact on each individual..every on2 is not da same

to be positive..

all of those are da peanut in da butter...

coz some can it it while some cant..

so as for me...just take it lightly, may be they didnt mean to be harsh or make u uneasy..but just take it n try to alter it n become better in future...

if some one had condemned u...just leave it be..,we cant shut others mouth...

remember to behave so that other people would not talk back or even 'kantoi depan2'...hehehe..

p/s: if anyone didnt like this post im sorry..didnt mean to hurt any body..just o share a thought...

..SampLing Envi-BioTech..

2011-01-18T22:20:00.000-08:00

..Sg.Pandan WaterFalL..

salam..ime

yesterday, i went to Sg Pandan waterfall or the locals called panching...we had to take sample of insacts at terrestrial area, upstream and downstream aquatic animals...

it was so happening n we were all very excited...hehehehe....

at the terrestrial area we managed to collects many types of insect from different species and also some frog n toads.. luckily for some group they got to catch butterfly...

after, that we changed to other site which was upstream area where we needed to catch any aquatic animals that live at the waterfall..so as for my group we got small fish, small prawns and some water bugs..

since there was some time..the brothers happily jumped in da waterfall.n we sisters r just played around and took pictures...we were so envy at them bcoz they bought changes but we didn't...

after half an hour we went to downstream area....we had catched some small fish n also prawns...hehehe...

oowhhh..i just cant wait for our next trip..heehheee

..SampLing Envi-BioTech..

2011-01-14T05:02:00.000-08:00

...TaNgki kUmBaHan IIUM Kuantan...

salam..

what a suprised places..hehehehe..ewwwuuhhhh!!!!...so grosss!!!!...sooo smellyYYY!!!!!...

that personally the sound of my friends...just some of them..hehehe..obviously...that was da expression..

well..no offence for us..its might be some part of our job to take sample from that kind of place...

we was showed the flow of the water treatment..from the influent which means the waste directly from the toilets of academic building and also hostels...

we took some sample ... then we went back to da lab to make evaluation on the content off the water..there some standard that we need to be test such as the BOD, salinity, temperature and etc.

it was so much in put in handling those tanks..each tanks has their own specification that needed to be follow..

at lab we had incubate the sample to observe the live spend of the bacteria inside the water waste...

thanks to bro hafizal for the explanation n guidance during ou time there..

...beTwEen maTuriTy & RespOnsibLliTy...

2011-01-13T20:59:00.000-08:00

salam...

1st of all this note is just to share for all off us..

whether u guys believe it or not officially we had been friend for almost 3 years..

lots of fun, happy n sadness we had share together...

nevertheless, obstacle will come since we had separated due to our desire...

maturity is so subjective..same goes to responsibility...

some says that both will come together as we overcome problem or challenges that we had faced...

there is no actual module or syllabus for obtaining both...

its good to voice out and spill out our thought...

but in proper ways...

all by means...

no emotional, no heart pain, no intend to had cold war or anything so so..

friends, i think we had known this right...

if we open our eyes and think rationally ...

we will never regret if we had said...

if somebody misunderstand us then we should explain in the best and good manner...

so they will understand us...

insyaallah our life here will be more peaceful and harmony..

p/s: its a light reading...no war no payback action and no contempt...

..wHaT's iN siDe mE..

2011-01-11T11:05:00.001-08:00

m i that awful...

..MASUM SeLecTioN 2011..

2011-01-11T11:04:00.000-08:00

..The New IIUM Kuantan Taekwando Club..

8 january 2011 - selection for MASUM...

congratulations guys!!!!!

apiz, huda, k.azkey, hafiz syuk n mira...thanx guys.. we really appreciated ur efforts...insyaallah next time i'll be the one that will fight for our club...

..ToT 2011..

2011-01-11T11:02:00.000-08:00

salam...

for da 1st time i had been to Glory Beach Resort, Port Dickson n for da 2nd time cma n i represented Taekwando club..hihihihihi

the input for this TOT is really useful...since rite now we had hold da club intil next sem...lots of responsibility n in coming program awaiting for us..

generally, tot really helped me in understanding how to manage TC...although i had attended it previously..but it seemed this time was just to polished back our knowledge...

thanx for all committees from student development IIUM for organizing this seminar...

..SampLinG oF EnviRoNmenTaL BioTech...

2011-01-06T11:54:00.000-08:00

...ChaRas CaVe...

salam..

last Wednesday we went to charas cave where situated at Panching...this cave is actually for Buddists to perform their pray because in that cave there is a statues called Sleeping Buddha...

when we arrived it was raining heavily...plus the keeper of that cave wasnt there..so we had to wait for him since he is da only one who keep the keys...we were lucky bcoz there is a shelter for us...there was also few people..who i believed the villages who like to hang around ... may be to sick for fortune or gambling since its deep in to the palm oil orchard..

so .. as da man arrived we entered da cave..it was cold...creepy..n i was so anxious..y did dr.jamal wanted to sample from this cave....i was confused..but its really unbelievable..i was speechless...bcoz its da 1st time i went into da cave like this..hihihihi

so we already had our group n we had to take sample from da water in side it..da water is da one that made from the dropping water from stalagmite n stalactite...n also from the under water source...

it was still raining out side as we came out from the cave...there were not many bats...may be its bcoz da cave had electrical lamps n also pandarflour lamps...

so we went back to university in soaked..rrrrrrr...so cold....i can see da unsatisfied faces from da bus drivers as we got inside da bus...what to do..

then we went to another site which is the "empangan"..but we cant take da sample cause the water current so hilarious n dangerous..so just can see that place...

p/s: cant wait to go another place...hehehehe

..surViVors 0105..

2011-01-04T06:38:00.000-08:00

salam..

this post is a special dedication to all my frens whos used to be called Survivors0105 while we were in Tunku Kurshiah College..

we have met on da same date like today the 4th january 2001..lots of memories we had shared together until we were in 5th former 2005..

da bond between us made us as what n who we are today..still hugging each other when we met..still concern ..still sharing da best moment together..still cry n lend shoulders when we were sad..

thus...i hope this relationship will last long n we can meet each other when reunion is made...

love u guys so much..muaxxx...xoxo.._qu'en_

..SampLinG oF BioDiversiTy...

2011-01-04T06:32:00.000-08:00

>>part 1<<

salam..alhamdulillah..today we had gone to tanjung lumpur mangrove area...to check on the diversity of a wetland..

today's sampling really excite most of my frens..since some of them just newly had this kind of experience..

with da guidance from bro.wadi n pok ya..we managed to collect many different types of insects n any other species of animals like snails n etc....

after that we had to go back to our lab to preserve some species which may be rare to mangroves area..

..dA 1sT Quiz on BioDiVersiTy..

2011-01-03T20:57:00.000-08:00

salam...
(starting from today i wanna apply da islamic bsis which already had in my life)

just now i had quiz examination on biodiversity subject...this subject was tough by Dr.jalal Khan...he is so passionate about biodiversity...im seriously adored him as much as i struggle for this subject..

da quiz just like b4..an hour n a half..quite long but worth it with da number of question...he never missed a slide of his notes..huhuhuhu..still i had to bared in my mind to fully attention in his class n also read a lot...

n da most important part is to memorized everything b4 da quiz or exams...

so ...thats it....hehehehe

p/s: this afternoon we will be going to Tanjung Lumpur for sampling..wait for da next post ..ok...

2010..

2011-01-02T04:56:00.000-08:00

...my days...

my days was full of lies...
my days was full of dirts..
my days was full of regrets..
my days was full of egos...
my days was full of evil dos..
my days...

nevertheless..

my days tough me to be a better person..
my days learnt me to more careful in choosing friends..
my days gave me more experiences...
my days appreciated me as who m i n who i m..
my days nobbled da most wonderful smiles in da world...

live life to da max...

..TeLuk KaLonG...

2010-12-22T04:31:00.000-08:00

Himpunan Mahasisawa bersama Komuniti 1 Malaysia

DUN Kijal & DUN Kemasik

Last weekend i went to kemaman for community services..since its da last weekend b4 i had started my study...so we departed at 9 o'clock in da morning n arrived there about 10.30am...since the organizers not ready so we went aroung da village n had tea for a while..in da afternoon we had opening ceremony n then we were given to our "family angkat"...that was the 2nd time for me...after that , i went to da family's house..got to know da family members..credits to my parents coz of their guidance i could adapt to da new environment..hehehe..thanx mama n papa..but still i had to behave...at nite ..da family n i had to go back at da same place for Forum perdana..da speakers were very well known..hehehe..i just listened n took few notes...since my sleepy could not control...

after da forum finished, da family drop by a warung to had some snack..lempeng kelapa..i had heard but never try it so that was da 1st time..hehehe...btw i was not da only anak angkat ..there another one aini from UNISZA...she's from perlis...quite a shy girl...hehehehe..contras with my attitude..sorry 'ma' n 'pak'...hehehehe\

da next day...as for iium student we had to help our little bros n sistah.. we guided them on da rite way to perform solah n how to had ablution... as for our family angkat ..the had a competition at bukit kuang ...which is 'kacau syura'...da competition is very famous n regularly held for villages ...there also had futsal clinic for youngsters...at noon supposed there was 'sukan rakyat' ..unfortunately it was raining heavily.so it was canceled..at nite we dont go for malam kebudayaan..we just spent da nite taking pictures n went out together with da family...it was so fun..

da next morning we had to go to balai raya teluk kalong...sonok jugak...hehehe..since my family angkat is the chairman of JKKK teluk kalong so weather o like it or not we had to go.ala just simple cleaning...hehehe..then we went to pantai teluk kalong..ooooo..i miss beach...heheheh...so peaceful n tranquil....we had mee grg...yum2...then we headed home...ma cooked chicken curry n some other dishes..in da same time we had chat about my family...

around 2 pm yg headed back to assembly field...da closing ceremony held...we cherish all moment that we had...coz iium student had to go back early then other university...

this was so unforgettable moment n i wish to go there again...thnx ma n pak...i love u guy...

..WasTe...

2010-12-21T19:47:00.000-08:00

..environmental biotech class...

hi there..hehehe...just wanna share some view regarding our surrounding...of course about the environment..

can u tell me how many waste that u produce within a day..or a week..or a month or a year...

did u noe how r they being eliminated or decomposed or handled..

a big NO rite?!!

well..we should take notes all these..either u like it or not..u should..i noe it gross...eeeuuwwwhhh!!!!

but still..in order to save our earth we had to do some thing..we must conserved our earth from all these nonsense...

make sure..u take care all ur waste..manage them or sort them..da one that can recycle just put a side n sent them to da recycle place..ok...

apply 3R..then u may have a better life in future..

..cuti sem..

2010-11-30T10:10:00.000-08:00

....tHe bOnD...

this sem break lot of things happened..unhappy..happy..as for me ..

just having fun al da time although its hurt...y?..

well..this aidil adha nota like b4..as u noe just like aidil fitri b4..i dot noe may be this year..somthing missing...not as always ...

then..when theres time to hang p with friends...byk plak alasan n complain...y must he/she..mcm x de org lain..so what ... its me myself...who cares i wanna frenz with whom..i noe my limits..stop treat me like a little girl..im 22 OK...

then ali bersunat..hahaha..da day that i wanna have...nothing change pun..mama n papa still give extra care..

well what to do..anak manje..its not like im jeles..but still...b4 this pun same jugak...

m i too childish?

really?

mama said..ape la kakak ni mcm budak kecik..what have i done that show me a budak?

huhuhuhu..

after this ..im going to gemencheh ..what for...

wait for my next post k..

hehehehe..

c u.. xoxo...

...eNd oF sEm1 3Rd yEaR...

2010-11-10T18:46:00.000-08:00

...eXams...LaTe NiTes...bOriNk sTuFf...

iii mmmiiiiiissssss uuuuu!!!!!!...

hehehe...i took me long time to write again n this blog..huhuhuhu..buzy woman..hahahaha...my life threatening me so hectic pass few weeks...last minutes assignments....preparation for the exams n all borink stuff which i need to faced and go through with them all...hehehe..plus..its kind of weird to write in English since i had never spoken in English in my daily life..i tried but sometimes people see me with weird gesture..n i cant handle it..hahahaha..

exams are almost finished just another paper that took my 6 days to have it..huhuhuhuhu..the gap was filled by borink stuff..like 'guling2 atas katil coz sitll in daydream', no idea where to start study again, surf internet which im not that type like to overdo it like some people 247 online n watch da flat screen, watching korean's series (heheheh i loike!!!!...) n last but not least hang around huhuhuhuhu (really tiring n exhausted...huh!!)...

this afternoon im gonna have DO class which is a class for da last paper..huhuhuhu...

hopefully, this class will be last n i can colect all da notes from her..hukhukhuk...

..FiNaL eXam FeVeR...

2010-10-27T05:54:00.000-07:00

...iNsTrumenT, meDicaL bioTecH, ReSearcH meTh, naTuRaL pRoDucT, biOinFo n DesiGn..

huhuhu...its coming again..n for sure i will harder this time...

yyyyyyyy???????

hehe...

...sYmBiOn 2010...

2010-10-21T09:17:00.000-07:00

...BiOTecH fOr HeaLthiEr LiVinG...

this event was taking place at UMP...yup eddy's uni..hehehehe..a.k.a my second uni..huhuhuhuhu...

hahahaha..

this SymBion actually more or less like conference that i had attended before..but still not da same..symBion was about biotech engineering field which related to my course also..it was held also as a medium to build relationship between industries, students from different universities n also lecturers...

this event was a great opportunity for those who didnt make it to go to da conference at KLCC..

da 1st talk was about red biotechnology..emphasized on the health, medicine n new technology in healing or curing diseases...da speaker was mdm lutchemi from Malaysian Bioinformatics Center (MABIC)... she talk about da new discovery in red biotech n also about career opportunity on this filed..

da 2nd talk was bout the experience of dealing with herbs to produce new product for consumers..this talk was delivered by mdm raha from MARDI...

after lunch, we were separated into two groups..where by a group will go to da Lembaga Kemajuan Perusahaan Pertanian Negeri Pahang and da other group will have a tour at chemical biotech engineering lab...

so i was in da group that had to go on tour...although it was just inside the UMP..but still...all da instruments that they have are more advance n much bigger...u noe pilot scale...huhuhuhu...there was in a wherehouse...where the large instruments was located n also the lab....

...IGEM 2010...

2010-10-21T08:26:00.000-07:00

..i CaN fEeL iT..

it was the 1st time ever i had gone for an international conference...it was really awesome..n in da same time made me feel da world of biotech..seriously n no kidding...

IGEM or International Greentech & Eco-Product Exhibition & Conference Malaysia..."Green Future : Low Carbon Green Growth"...as da theme of this event really open up my eyes to see how da world trying to save our earth hardly...yeah as the speaker said "its really hard to change drastically but we can always make a difference step by step"...

its was actually an international campaign to emphasize the importance of saving the nature n avoid using things that made our life worse...hence it still can be save as all of us know how to do it...

as we arrived at da morning about 8.30am..we straight to registration site n had our lovely goody bag..hehehe..i like it..

da 1st slot that we entered was about how to minimize the use of carbon from light n other electrical appliances...its was true surprised me that an 64 years old man asking question n he gave his taught upon the speech that the speakers were delivered before that...we still blurred at that time..yeah u noe..out of nowhere n suddenly u are surrounding with all dato'2 n datin2, tan sri2 n all ambassadors n also representative of all companies not only in Malaysia but also out side da nation...

after that we may separated n it was up to us which talk conference that we wanna entered...so i went to resource recovery n waste management...the speakers were really inspire me ..especially the speaker from Thailand who was the founder of Wongpanit...what is Wongpanit?...its a large company in thailand that recycle almost all waste that had been collected from every area in thai...if u wanna noe more just google it.. im sure u will also be surprised..

then, lunch time !!!! wink winkwink!!! ^-^

we had lunch with hotel services..really 1st class..hehehe..as student u noe..this kind of opportunity will come twice..so we had our lunch..hehehe..not to mention there were western , local n japanese cuisine ....ooowwwwhh..how i love this scene..hehehehe...da smile face of all my frenz..hehehehe...

then i entered da 3 slot ..about biomass in comparison of malaysia Eu country n japan...exciting but not much.huhuhuhu..may be i used to listen to this topic so it may a bit of bornk...hehehehe..then hasna n i went to da previous venue..to watch more about waste management ..but sadly it was came to an end..we had our tea...

after that we went to see the exhibition..wooowwwww!!!!!!!...

it was totally cool..n ... awesome..

for those who not attend this event..u will regret..honestly..it really helps in finding ur ways to determined which part of biotech that u wanna entered..may be we cant see da future but we can alwys try n find da best for our selves..

...AGM...

2010-10-14T16:50:00.000-07:00

..Annual Grand Meeting SCIENCESS n New Board of Director...

last nite was an amazing...at last i finally could feel the 'aura' of being one of da nominee for election committee...seriously that was my 1st time..yeah i noe for some of u think that this event wasnt that important but not for me...

for me being one of the board member give u lots n lots of experience that u will never get from any where unless u gain it from this kind of event..yeah..believe me u will learn a lot...

nway...congratez for thise that had been chosen to lead SCIENCESS hopefully u guys will up grad our kuliyyah for da next level..

insyaallah...

...tHis HearT...

2010-10-14T16:32:00.000-07:00

...nObOdy...

yes ...
nobody knew what inside this heart...
so much pain...
so much anger...
so much pity...
so much desire...

yes...
nobody knew whats gonna happen on this heart...
the thing that not gonna end..
the thing that not gonna vanished within a second...
the thing that not gonna smashed n broken just like an empty jar...
the thing that gonna remain there silently...

this heart...
had been n all circumstances...
pain, hatred, anger, hurt, touched, happy, joy, missing n love..

this heart...
really hope every thing will be in the right order..
as usually like nothing happen..

but...

this heart ...
knew that it was not that simple...

sigh~~

...cOnVesT 2010...

2010-10-11T04:04:00.000-07:00

..Can'T waiT...

it was da 1st time i had been at iium gombak for CONVEST...wooowwww!!!!..it was really awesome n really excite me...i just cant wait for my own convocation hehehe....

* ni sempat jugak tgk demo taekwando kat sane...hehehe

..aFteR raYa...

2010-10-11T03:41:00.000-07:00

...BioTecH 072,081 & 082.. GlaMouR Raya!!!...

of course after raya ..more open house n so on..until at da end of syawal...so fun n njoy having with all my frens...still lina n oppo weren't there..huhuhu (disappointing a bit) ..but ok..

hehehe...luckily i was one of da mc for that day with shahir...both never been as mc..hahahaha..lawak jugak la..hahaha...the one n only vip that came to our function is bro. Don nur Lukman (sweet n gentleman "kate apin"hehehehe)...

that nite we ate nasi ujan panas, sate, roti jala, kuih cek mek n curry-puff... there were two games which da 1st one was 'jgn lipa lirik ' n the other one was 'pemberite byk kepala'..for da 1st game.. da rule was just as same as da one on tv...but for this event it was becoming like karaoke session.. well n way thanx to shauqi, ukasya, azanita n miji..for being very sporting..hahahaha...

for da 2nd game , a group of people were goin to recite a new based on da given title..n deliver it as creative as they can spontaneously...hehehe...tha group that win da competition was consist of miji, bonzer, mus, anip n bad..hehehehe..they really make the scene really xciting n hilarious..hahahaha

at the end of da event we had chosen shauqi as MR.RIANG n awatif as MIS RIA..hehehehe

overall ... was very happening n i m gonna miss all of this soon..huhuhu

...sYawaL 2010...

2010-09-23T22:48:00.000-07:00

...FamiLy...

syawal come again..met my family n i without ijoy together with us...actually...we could still feel his presence but for me may be not...

this syawal for me ..not as much as before..yeah..absolutely...full of sorrow...

as all of u had knew my late grandmother had gone to our creator as well as my late uncle month after that...

their presence still warmed ourselves..with da jokes n personalities...owhh..i miss my raya so much...

plus ..this syawal we cant make it to balik kampung as we planned...due to some problems..

so it was addition to da sadness...sadness????...i can say that for me...

well..its hard actually to write again in da blog it took me some times for me to write it in this post...coz im not used to lost some one n not only one but 2...really..writing this make me cry again...

------hehehe....end of story for that..........

so 1st da of hari raya...we made masi minyak..n some rendang..no ketupat or nasi impit as always...but on da 2nd day we made ketupat n nasi impit..

im not goin anywhere.just been at home n served the relatives n guests...

alhamdulillah i can still celebrate 1st Syawal again with my beloved family...

this is our new pics for hari raya..hopefully next one will have full house...

...menjelang syawal...

2010-09-06T04:11:00.000-07:00

rumah ku adalah segalanya..

kdg2 kite x perasan yg rumah kite tu yg merupakan tpt bg kite memulakan penghidupan..

manusia sekarg mudah alpa dgn hal2 dunia yg menyeronokkn...

sampai lupa ibu bapa dan adk beradik.dgn menganggap mereka semua beban..

kdng2 benci pun ade...

namun bulan syawal yg bakal tibe beberapa hari je lg membuat kn saudara2 kite yg jauh dari keluarga ..rindu...menyesal ....rugi...

sbb x dapt bersama keluarga..

walau bagaimana pun tidak pada saudara kite yg terpaksa belajar dan bekerja di luar negara...

tambahan pulak , kalau kite telah kehilangan sahabat teman atau pu saidara mara yg pergi menemui Ilahi...

yg dekat dan mampu pulang ke sisi keluarga ..

pulanglah...

yg jauh walau pun x jauh mane...cubalah plang...

cuba..dan terus mencuba..masa masih ade...

yg jauh beribu batu terpisah lautan antartika...

sabarlah..insyaAllah ade rezeki kite dapt berjumpa di lain lebaran...

p/s: ijoy.kami sekeluarag mendoakan kamu sihat disana...mungkin skar utk balik ke malaysia..tp doa dan ingatan kami tetap ade.semoga puasa cukup..dan tabah selalu k...salam sayang dari kakak dan keluarga..

..Buka Puasa...

2010-08-28T19:40:00.000-07:00

...TaNjuNg LumPur...

last nite , oppo, wanis, yeh , nik, edy n i went to buka puasa together...
just to have nice buka puase with edy..huhuhuhu..
we order siakap grg 3 rasa, kailan ikan masin, sayur campur, lala mask merah n sotong grg tepung....

as da azan berkuamandang we open break our fast by eating kurma n sirap limau...then we went to da surau to have maghrib prayer 1st...

then we ate all except for sotong grg tepung..

it was too bad coz we didint get to eat sotong grg tepung..huhuhu..sedey sgt..

...PuaSa...

2010-08-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

..duLu..duLu...

salam ramadhan buat semua..=)

bile tibe je bln ramadhan yg mulia ni terigt mase kecik2 dulu..mase mula2 blaja puasa...

hehehe..(blm pape gelak dulu)...im sure that all of us had good n weirdos memories pasal puasekn..kelakar ..lucu..sume ade...

pristiwa yg plg x bley thn n akn gelak selalu was that time baru balik dari Taski Abim..hehehe..budak baik la katekn..mase tu ade ain wawa n ijoy..kebetulan masa tu papa pg amek mama dari sekolah ptg...kitorg time tu tinggal kat Kem Polis Hutan Batalion 8..tp sekarang da tukar name Batalion 8 Pasukan Gerakan Am kat pengkalan Chepa..so ceritenye..balik dari taski kn penat la..mase kalo x salah hari ke 2 atau ke3...mase tu ain sorg je yg pose wawa demam..so papa ade belikn die chipsmore yg kecik tu..

tgh wawa buka...ain da pandang ngan pandangan yg semacm .."wo ko x pose ke?".."kak kn td awa pg klinik ngan papa"..owh.."penat la hari ni..besh la mu x pose...mu th x ..x baik mkn dpn org pose..."...."ea ke?"..."meh bg akak sikit..tp ko diam2 jgn bg th papa..."

tetibe dgr motor...cet motor jiran sebelah...buat penat je cover...hahahaha...masuk kepng yg ke3.."aik kak byknyer ko mkn...bg th papa br th..."..ain ckp "jgn macm tu wa..ko syg ke kat akak..penat tau pose.."

hahh!!!!papa da balik...dari tingkap da nampak..aik nape x de bunyi motor...

jejak ke tangga pertama...."papa!!!!! kakak x pose..."...siot betul si wawa ni ..da tu kene la bebel..x dpt duuit raye la...tu la...ni la...pastu last2 habis jugak pose sebln tanpa curi2 mkn lg...hehehehe....

-to be continue-

..eGo..

2010-08-22T06:23:00.000-07:00

..how can one live with egoistic..

.isn't it seem like pathetic...
which meant that ..ermmm..honest like make me feel sick n nak muntah...

i noe bein gentleman is good but please la behave like an adult first...

then..
if u want to spent lots of money then go ahead..
if u want to be a good hubby then go ahead..
if u want to curfew ur wife n not let her be alone then go ahead...

just open ur eyes..n please2..
be matured 1st..huhuhuhuhu..

i also have my own but better not to show off...

p/s:this post is nit pointed to anyone but just to brief how do i feel for those who has EGO...huh...

..Ramadhan...

2010-08-15T00:12:00.000-07:00

...FasTing mOnTh...

time is runnin so fast...

ramadan had drop by...its a requirement for every muslim to fast during this whole month...

today, its da 5th Ramadhan which mean , i had fasting for 5 days...alhamdulilah every thing just find..but for past 2 days im not to well...may be the changin of weather...sometime it was too hot..sometimes it was too cold...day n nite...it kept changin...may its da 'fitrah' of fastin month..one of da way for HIM to test His servants...to up hold the desire to eat, drinks, avoid maksiat n all wrong doins...Allahuakbar...

only HE knows...

tests n challenges come without any sign...not eanough with that..the responsibility as a student to take quiz n exams really make me strong to face it...

insyaAllah everything will be find...

this comin week..i had 3 quiz...instrumentation, bioinformatics n medical biotech...

lets have faith n strive till da end....amin...

...circLe oF liFe...

2010-08-15T00:01:00.000-07:00

i felt like yesterday met her...

with warm touch n hugs...she was so soft..

i wonder who was she exactly...

she never took something for granted..
she never got angry with something ...
she just remained silent if other people talked behind her back..
she always been so calm...like nothing had happened to her...

she was very passionate in what she was doin...

sometimes i wonder is any body else like her in this world..

do u?

p/s: this post is dedicated to arwah badariah lamid...a grand mother of da one i love...may she rest in peace..A-fatihah....

...mUvi...mUvi...mUvi...

2010-08-03T15:07:00.000-07:00

...uPdaTed...

dont misunderstood when i wrote "updated"...it was actually seemed like i was left behind b4..just wait for Ruby nma rumie to gave me some new downloaded muvi that she had had..hehehehe...well what to do if the SYNDROME M is in like da storm...

so far for this sem i had watched predator, toy story, inception, salt n da last one was the sorcerers ...

predator...i watched it with my 11 friends included wan (apin's friend)...hahaha it was so funny n honestly i never feel that scary so much when i watched other sequel of predator..

toy story..it was in 3d actually..hehehe..

inception...i watched it with oppo, lina, wanis, raf n some other girls hehehehe...i really like a story within a story...it make me felt thrilled..

salt... da 1st movie i watch with yaya n hafiz jeremy together2 with oppo n wanis..it was hell of da nite..totally screwed..n was a really bad day..n it was da 1st time i watched muvi at teruntum..hehehe...n some one kantoi depan i..hahahahaha....

the sorcerers ...i watched it with edy..since he came down to town with his friends...hehehe...

seriously..this sem like i never wanna miss every any blockbuster movie...da one that ive been waiting for is avatar da last air bending 3d..hehehee..cant wait...yeeeyyyhhh!!!!!!

...TeDdy BeaR...

2010-07-21T21:56:00.000-07:00

..Cik TeD...

hehehe..sound familiar...suddenly apin gave me a bear..what really shockin suprise...

i placed it at my novels rack so that its easier for me to hug her...hehehehe...

nway thanx apin..it is so lovely...

..uNpReDicTabLe Day...

2010-07-21T06:34:00.000-07:00

...sHoPpiNg n watcHinG...

hehehe..tahnx mdm linda for finishing our class earlier today..

its was really fun n exited...

at first just rite after class...apin, cma, aiza n i went to photocopy shop to claim our papers.then unplanned we went to warehouse sale..hehehe..unbelievable i bought a pair of shoes..hehehe..

and also a pair of kambing toys for burfday abg syg..hahahahah...i named them momo n bobo...

hehehe..after that oppo invited me to watch Inception...not just both of us but lina , raf, wanis, fiza, zura n liz also came along..hehehehe..not bad..but after a while got a little dizzy..hehehe..i was fastng actualy...

then we got to hostel by 7o'clock..had prayer n got ready for buke puasa...

...FuLLHouSe...

2010-07-19T23:36:00.000-07:00

..so tired...so hectic...so mean...so arrogant...so decent...

hehehe..maybe some of u think that its da rest house called "full house"...

as for me..my life in kuantan for a week was so unthinkable n out of no where i think i like this new life...

well..since this sem everyone is competing one another to brought new car..not to mention some of them bought new one n some had sold his/her car...erm..that life that full of unthinkable doin...im just stay low...huuhu..as always..

new sem im tryin to do some thing differ than b4..well..just stay cool ..wait .... n seee....

so for da whole last week..i went to many places...hehehe..just around kuantan..its fun bcoz normally i just walkin in small group...

so that time there were about 13 person with us...we went to ECM watched a movie...predator..huh!!!..'sape ntah yg pilih cite tu...i m not sure what scared me but its really raised up my Nerf...it didnt seem like i never watch predator b4 but..huhuhu...maybe watching with da person who dont even like scary movie make me feel like that..'..but b4 that we had our lunch at Papa Grilled & Mama Chopped..hehehe...as usual chicken chop n jumbo cup coke...heheheh..so full...

after that we went to megamall..we played a round of bowling...it was fun but somebody was missing that time..after that...we split in a group of 4 ...apin, aiza, safwan n i...we headed to Zul Satay..hahaha...safwan bedal 20 cucuk satay..apin x habis ..aiza pun same...me ..tahu2 je la..hehehhe...

then da next day we went to safwan's grandparent's fruit orchard...we plucked some langsat n search for da king of da fruit...huhuhu....mr.durian..we only got 5 biji durians ....as for mangosteens..safwan already plucked them for as...'gentlemen jugak...boleh la..hehehehe...jgn marah wan...'

then da next day...apin n i went out again n met safwan at da ecm..this time he was been honored to spent us da tickets of Toy Stories's 3.hahahaha..lawaks...masing2 bukan tgk pun layan je la...apin's bf in da town that nite..epul ...we searched for da budget hotel for him to stay..huhuhu..da next day..im not goin anywhere..just loitering around in da room n read again da novels...hehehehe...at nite apin asked me to join them mkn2 at tanjung lumpur..huhuhu..well what to do im on diet..just take a jumbo cup of watermelon juice n had some ikan bakar n sotong tepung..so full n yummy...thanx apin n epul...

da nest day ...oppo ajak mkn rojak..ikut je la....sedap..for those who want to had some please come to midnite..its only open during day time...da cendol was good too...at 1st it was only oppo n i..then wanis , yeh n ika (yeh's sister) came along....had some chit chat..update some stories...then..went to ecm.i wanted to give edy a jacket..so i ask oppo n fortunately aus was there to..since he is a man..hehehehe..he became our model..hahahaha..thanx to oppo n aus ...da dpt da ..n edy said it fit him well...hehehe..what a releaved...yup..i never bought any clothes to my brothers or sisters..so its so had for me..

that after that oppo n i went to terminal to fetch edy...then we had our dinner at sekilau..hahahaha..edy mkn byk...its ok ..i noe at his place susah nak cari mkn...huhuhu..at least he can go to his hostel n have a good rest...

on da weekend i dont go out much..just went to make x ray opg at klinik s.k.liew...huhuhu...y?...just wait .i'll tel u then...at same day oppo's mom datang..it wasnt my attention not to meet her..but..i had a thing to do..plus.............

thats how my days without internet..huhuuu..so late on ill tell u again..k...

x0x...

..inTer sEm bReaK..

2010-07-07T15:04:00.000-07:00

...unFoRgeTtaBle...

lots n lots happen in my life for past 3 months... being jobless in not a waste...

days passed days...doin home routines were as simple as snap da fingers but then still laziness n boring moment occur few times..sometimes "boikot x nak masak" ... when da mood came.. im doin lots of cook... just wanna try new menu..hehehe..build up da skills on cookin..

done laundries included washing, hanging n of course " lipat la ape lagi...hehehehhe..."...

clean up mess here n there....

when i think about what m doin actually i helped mama alot..yup..when she was tired back from school i can see da smile on her face yeah...coz ali n emi sometimes ilah makin da home a little bit messy ... but yet im keepin da home clean n tidy.."chewah..masuk bakul angkat sendiri..."

actually, this holiday , it was full with sorrow moments n sadness...happyness a bt but da most important thng i can be with my family all da time...sorry ijoy..kakak didnt want to make u sad.. i just wanna tell n share my holiday with u n others who read my post...

arwah wan (my grandme) n arwah pak ndak (my uncle) had left us without we realized them...its all from Him. He da one who take back da life that had been borrowed by His creation... 'Dear Allah who had all da gracious n all da merciful..i beg for ur grace n mercy please place my grandma n uncle among da good people n them who u love...may they rest in peace...'

both funeral i had attended..da atmosphere full of gloom n tears...owh how can i tell this...let just me who can feel it...from what had happened ..i can see da relationship between our relatives more tighter...who before had a conflict slowly gettin close to one another..may be not so obvious..but still in progress...alhamdulillah...

eddy da entered UMP...where close to mine..hehehe..may its good for both of us..slightly closer to my parents...from before..

hopefully.. this new sem will ring joy n happiness also success for all of us ...insyaAllah...

...sEtiaP bEnDa yAng BerNyAwA...

2010-07-05T06:28:00.000-07:00

hidup ni penuh dgn kitaran hidup yg kita sama sekali x boleh nak jangka ape yg berlaku...

mcm roda...sekajap penanda aras kita di atas..kejap nanti penanda aras kita dibawah..mcm bumi..beputar di paksinye sendiri..bagi manuasia pulak paksi kita adalah kalam Allah yg telah mencatikan segala peristiwa yg telah brlaku sedang berlaku dan bakal berlaku...

kata2 yg selalu kita dgr dari ayat al-Quran..Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu makhluk jikalau makhluk itu sendiri tidk mengubah nasibnya...

begitu juga dgn manusia zaman kini...setiap hari penuh dugaan dan ujian yg diterima..ia nye terpulang pd individu itu sendiri sama ada mahu melawan atau redha sahaja degn ketentuan...

patutkan kita membarkan org memperkotakkatikkan perasaan , maruah dan kredibiliti kita..atau dalam bahsa kasar pijak kepal kita walhal kita thu kita lebih berhak keatas sesuatu yg telah atau mungkin menjadi milik kite..

x salah untuk menjdi seorg yg optimistik berbanding org yg persimist...tepuk dada tanye selera...

ubah adalah keazaman kita sendiri atau target kita untuk berpindah dari satu tahap ke satu tahap...atau berubah kita sendiri bergerak melalui fasa yg berbeza...atau mengubah..kita memerlukan org lain utk meletakkan kita dari satu posisi ke posisi yg lain ..atau perubahan yag sekali gus membawa impak besar pada diri kira sendir yakni merupakan hasil dari pada setaiap usaha dan keupayaan kita sendir untuk meletakkan diri kita di tahap yg bagai mana..

mungkin org bingung dgn ape yg di perkatakan..
tp sedar lah wahai umat manuasia..
kita sekarang di akhir zaman...byk malasah sosial, masalah politik..masalah peribadi..masalah dalaman yg perlu kita hadapi, harus dikawal dgn rapi dan mesti hi tempuh dgn sehabis daya bg memartabatkn diri kita sendiri bangsa, agama dan negara....

semua org boleh cakap dgn gah penh semangat..tp tindakannye x seperti ape yg di canangkn..

buka mata bukalah minda...muhasabah diri..moga dapat jd pendorong do masa hadapan...

..nEw mOnTh..

2010-06-30T21:03:00.000-07:00

...fuLl oF hOpE n SunShiNe...

early july lots of thing gonna happen to my family...

3rd july edy will enter his new uni..UMP...close to mine..hehehe..

may be after that we will be going to kl to visit wawa there n also other relatives...
as for me.there are critical moments that i need to be ready n be more serious than b4..

may not any of u think that im stil behave like a little child in front of mama n papa..

opps..sorry..that is me..i m who i m..

then.im goin to enter new sem..1st sem 3rd year biotechno..huhuhu..for me its sound scary..but for my little bro ali..he said.."hahaha!!! kakak da tua".. u rite..

well till im coming back from sending eddy to ump..

dadaaaa...

...MeMoRi...

2010-06-29T18:35:00.000-07:00

...yAnG pErGi...

setiap yg berlaku asti ade sebab dan musababnye...mungkin post kali ni agak personal tp sekadar untuk dikongsi bersama...

tanggal 19 Jun 2010...kami sekeluarga dikhabarkn berita pemergian allahyarham zalal bin kasbullah atau lebih mesra dipanggil pak ndak..

agak berat untuk menulis .... tapi x pe..kenangan yg indah harus dikongsi bersama...

asalnya wawa akan balik ke semenyih hari tu nak bas sebelah mlm...mama agak excited nak perap ayam utk mkn2 n bg wawa bawak belak balik...tapi..segalnya berubah...

khabar nye pak ndak demam...sape th dgn demam biase boleh bawa maut...sayat hati bile dgr dan lihat air muka mak ndak dan abg faisal...nizam ape lg langsung x buka mulut...sedih ...sungguh rasa hati x siapa yg th...

berita mengejut yg diterima buat mama hilang semangat tiba2...pada mulanye mama nak balik sorg..tp papa x bg...disini ain dapat lihat bagaimana fitrah manusia...walau pun byk hal agak berat dan susah utk berkomunikasi dgn papa tp hari tu jelaskan segalanya...papa terus minta cuti dan servis kereta yg mane patut...petang tu jugak kami bertolak..

dalam perjlanan...papa bwk kereta lebih 100km/j...memang biasa tp mlm tu agak luar biasa...mama x henti2 menangis kdg2 termenung..paling tidak tidur...ada jugak layan papa borak utk hilangkn ngantuk...ain kat belakang masih x percaya dgn ape yg berkalu...arwah wan baru je pergi lebih kurang 2 bln lepas ni pak ndak pulak...

sampai je kat area gua musang ain msg k.lang tanye ape perkembangan...k.lang cakap postmortem terpaksa buat esok sbb arwah meninggal dlm perjalnan n x de doktor utk buat autopsi...ain bg th mama...n then papa call pak long utk confirmkn...betullah ...mcm yg k.lang cakap...papa yg pada mulanye bawak kete 100 turun 90...80...then tanye nak berenti mkn dulu x...ali ape lg jawab la perut adik da bunyi....mase tu dpt tgk muka suram mama senyum...bekal yg dibawa x habis...masing2 mkn sekadar alas perut je..

ape2 pun perjalanan diteruskan..

sampai je area puchong around 3 pagi...masing2 jarang pg umh pak ndak...pusing2 la...cari tangki air...pusing2 sampai ulang tpt sama 2 3 kali..last sekali call acik...

sampai2 tgk muka abang faisal ...mase die salam ngan mama n papa die nangis..sedih tgk..pastu mama cari mak ndak ..kate kila mak ndak baru tido...then terjaga...mama tanye ape jd...mak ndak pun cite...

arwah mengadu bdn x sedap lepas balik keje...selalunye arwah tido kat atas tp mlm tu die tido bwh sebelah abg faisal...esokkan pagi keadaannye makin nampak x chat...jd m.ndak n abg faisal pun anta ke hospital..dari dlm kete lg mak ndak ckp da rasa lain..tangan arwah terkulai layu kalo x pegang...

tapi tuhan lebih menyayangi beliau...sebaik saja sampai arwah disahkan meninggal...abg faisal call pak long n pakngah...bg th hal tu...ain yg dgr mcm dlm mimpi...

arwah sgt manje bak kate mama...manja ngan arwah wan manje ngan mama...pak long plak ckap die la satu2 nye adik yg selalu call die tanye khabar...setiap minggu...pasti ade satu call...ucu ade bg th arwah ade dtg kedai die ..2 3 kali..dtg saje2...mcm menjenguk..lepas tu balik...ucu nora ade cakap selalu kalo arwah dtg die akan tanye kat ira anak ucu dgn panggilan 'ucuk andak mane'...tp kunjungan die x mcm selalu...

esokkn harinye..mama, papa, acik, abg.khairul, abg.faisal n mak ndak pg hospital utk postmortem n police report...kami yg kat umh kemas umh...sediakan bunga rampai n daun pandan utk alas arwah nant...kak ita yg ajar memandangkan mase arwah wan dulu die belajar dari org2 kampung...

kalo diikutkn mak ndak nak arwah balik umh dulu buat kali yg terakhir..tp atas permintaan khairiah tepatan seeloknye dibawak terus ke surau nak2 lagi arwah da ade semalaman di hospital...mama sempat tgk arwah dgn lebih dekat sebelum autopsi lg..sama jugak dgn yg lain2...

kami yg dirumah bergerak pergi ke surau...sambil menunggu ade yg bc yasin..tp ape yg paling buat ain rasa kagum..ramai sgt org yg datang..walaupun surau tu sederhana besarnye...org2 yg dtg kebykkannye kawan2 arwah dr tpt keje baru n lama..seblm disembahyangkn..kami semua di benarkan utk melihat wajah arwah buat kali terakhir... paling sayu sekali bile tgk mak ndak, nizam, nazreen, ika n last sekali abg faisal...mama x berenti2 air mata mengalir...ain x dpt nak cium..same mcm arwah wan dulu rase mcm semlm baru bergurau ngn pak ndak..maklumlah arwah suke menyakat org, mesra n ramah mulut...

selesai sembahyg ..kami ikut kereta jenazah ke tanak perkuburan...kat situ abg.faisal, nizam, abg.khairul n seorg wakil masjid da siap sedia didlm kubur...saat jenazah dimasukkan..ika menangis kuat mungkin x de sapa yg dgr tp ain ade kat sblh die...budak kecik baru darjah 3 ...hanye tuhan yg th ape yg die rase dan fikirkan...

setelah semua urusan selesai..talkin dibace..org ramai yg hadir dari surau dan ade lg sebahagian yg dtg x nak lepaskan peluang utk bg pengormatan terakhir utk arwah...alhamdullillah..segalanye telah sempurna...rata2 sahabat andai semua bagaikan x percaya arwah sudah tiada...

post ni ain mana kan sebagai memori sebb arwah suka n minat sheila majid...sagt2 minat..jd ni salah satu tajuk lagu dari sheila majid...kenagan terakhir buat arwah pak ndak...

kami akan sentiasa merindui mase2 bersama pak ndak.semoga pak ndak baik2 saja disana...

setiap yg hidup akan kembali kepada penciptaNYA...

bagi sesiapa yg membaca post ni diharapkan dapat menyedekahkan al-fatihah dan sedikit doa ..semoga roh pak ndak kami dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dikalangan org2 beriman serta renteramlah roh belau disana...AL-FATIHAH...

p/s: ijoy kakak minta maaf x dpt amek gambar arwah...k.ita cakap x elok...tp kakak ade gambar arwah mase kenduri arwah wan dulu nant kakak masukkn k...

..jUnE..

2010-06-06T08:59:00.000-07:00

...EdDy..MaMa..eMi..

june is a special month for our family...edy had his birthday on 2nd june ..n mama on da 6th..hehehe..while emi up comin on 18th...

edy..kakak noe u had something inside u that u never revealed n something inside u that u just keep it inside u..just hold ur temper..n smile always..u noe when u were baby..u had da sweetest smile that i ever seen ... i love u...

mama..kakak love u so much...although sometimes i showed u my bad attitude....still u hold me till now..i noe u had lost wan ...but its not da endof ur responsibility as a child...pray for her n always remember her..insyaAllah she will be fined there...

emi...hehhehe..ur burfday is not yet..but still...i had trouble u read u mind n action..some times im lost with ur attitude..i noe we are not spendin time together alot..but dont hesitate to tell me anything..im all yours...not only for u but others also..i noe its hard to get something that u want..but i will try my best to provide u anything u need...kakak love u too...

this is y i think June is special..

...ReaL liFe sO haRd tO ObTaiN...

2010-06-03T00:26:00.000-07:00

..bEtwEEn frEEdom n curfEw...

its hard to believe that a girl like me is tryin so hard to get out from house..its true although im actin innocent all da time at home...it just a matter of internal conflict from certain people...its hard to lost someone who had loved him / her so much..

as for me..its ok if da advice came directly or soft talk...but when it comes to something that i never do it..n it became so hard to be accepted...

i noe also ..im still under 'observation'.. huhu..

how do u feel....when u went out with ur old friends n then u got calls n sms..non stop from ur p****** n Bf...

it just like im a small kid who didnt noe how to survive in this world..

i noe lots of crimes happened towards children n women..

but still..if u noe how to avoid it then it should be ok...

im not tryin to be proud of myself that had trained taekwando for few years but still...i noe how to take good care of myself..

i just need some freedom n chance to proof that i can take care of myself...

...mY fAv...OST : nOktaH eRnA....

2010-05-29T10:04:00.000-07:00

...aDinDa - LaH aHmaD...

Malam pertama sangat sempurna
Duhai adinda sungguh jelita
Selama ini hanya kau yang ku tunggu

Bukannya rahsia di antara kita
Semakin membara jiwa gelora
Selama ini hanya kau di hatiku

Tak mudah ku melupakanmu
Hanya engkau yang ku perlu
Bayang-bayangmu masih menghantuiku
Apa saja yang kau mahu

[korus]
Semua untukmu oh adindaku
Dengarlah rayuan di hatiku
Sesungguhnya aku mencintaimu
Selalu di hatiku memanggil namamu
Oh adindaku oh adindaku
Semua kerana, kerna kamu

Engkaulah permata hatiku
Suluh menyinar hidupku
Yang selalu menerangi hari gelapku

Nantikan dinda yang satu
Tak akan pernah ku jemu
Semakin hari semakin ku rindu

Tak mudah ku melupakanmu
Hanya engkau yang ku perlu
Bayang-bayangmu masih menghantuiku
Kamu selalu di hatiku
Semua yang kau mahu

[ulang korus]

Walau berjauhan
Suaramu mengakhiri penantian
Tabah mengharungi cinta
Semua dugaan Maha Esa

[ulang korus]

...PoLicE...

2010-05-29T09:55:00.000-07:00

...HoLdiNg GuNs, RifLes n PisToL...

hehehe..i was accompanying papa to Lapang Sasar.for shooting competition n training..its quite fun actually..but not for papa..i could see how tired he was there... standing from morning until noon...

as for me..fw types of fire gun really made me truly excited...hehehe...that reminded me when i was in college my 1st time holding rifles during training...its quite heavy but its took times..hehehe...

really tiring..since here is "panas melampau"...yup im not jokin..really..its hot..sometimes it was almost 40 degree C u noe..really hot..until when u enter shopping mall u can feel da warmth... too hot..i make me thinkin how it will be in NERAKA...Allahu Akbar...

it really taught me how to handle gun.. its a good n really good experience..thanx papa..

...keLab pencinTa fiLem..

2010-05-24T20:50:00.000-07:00

last weekend my sister ilah had attended a program organized by FINAS under kelab pencinta filem at UMT.

they were taught how to be a good actor n actress.. these program for me is really good.. instead of to learn how

to be a good artist it also make participants more love filem tempatan..

why was that.. well..ilah seem to like local drama n filem instead of her fav korean n japan series..she said .."kakak next time kurangkn cite korea or jepun..tgk je cite melayu best gak"...hehehe..so i replied"orite"..with a big smile...

so my point here..is it will long last or it just for a while..huhuhu

..oLd fRienD..

2010-05-24T20:42:00.000-07:00

m pretty sure that every one have their memories while back in primary school or in secondary school..

heheh..

so do i..

well this post actually for my mama.."org lama" they were having friend like to da end of da day,,that one i should be agreed..why?.. bcoz mama had 2 friends which their friendship was so unbelieveable..

ok..it was beginning while in their teenage years..which like u know pen-pal..so mama, aunty shidah n aunty sajidah start writing to mama..of course aunty shidah is from perak n aunty sajidah is from negeri sembilan..

their friendship was like long distance relationship...they only contact to one another true letters...then..phones...n some times aunty shidah n aunty sajidah came to our house...

so on last 1st may..aunty sajidah had came to kelantan n had invited my family to accompany them to wedding receptionist...she got son in law..which mean that their friendship will became closer..

nway congrates to kak intan n hubby ..semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu...

as for me..

i always dreaming in having this kind of relationship..although they are far apart they still can be friend for one another..

da bond bettween them seems like they are sisters...i really miss survivors...

fRieNdsHip ~~

2010-05-24T20:22:00.000-07:00

friendship is da inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person, having neither to weight thoughts nor measure words...its like horizon which expands when we approach it...but..some friends play at friendship..but some friend stick closer than ones' nearest kin...da true friendship is like sound health..da value of it is seldom known until it is lost....in da end ...plant a seed of friendship n reap a bouquet of happiness...

...mY fAv...OST : aDaMaYa....

2010-05-10T21:45:00.000-07:00

...DakMie - Yg TeriNDaH...

semenjak kau hadir dalam hidupku

tiada lagi keresahan

kau mengetuk pintu hatiku

tanpa sedar hingga kuizinkan

kau yang bernama cinta

kau yang memberi rasa

kau yang ilhamkan bahagia

hingga ku terasa indah

maaf jikaku tak sempurna

tika bahagia mula menjelma

bila keyakinan datang merasa

kasih disalut dgn kejujuran

mencintai dirimu

merindui dirimu

memiliki dirimu

hingga akhir hayat bersama kamu

kau yang bernama cinta

..DayS aT hOmE...

2010-05-06T23:12:00.000-07:00

errmmm..being home not really bad..may be for some peeps they think that i just lepak at home n besarkan bdn..although da maintenance is abit lost but still da level not increase or decrease...hehehe..

so these are some my activities at home for da past few days:

* do house laundary
* do da cooks if not malas
* attend papa's occassion at his place
* took wawa from da railway station when she got here.huhuhu too bad wawa found out about eddies' driving lisence
* went to lata belatan..adik ali had a camping there

hehehe..

..cOunTdOwN..

2010-04-28T20:14:00.000-07:00

...tRip tO pOs LepiH..

da day has come...my 1srt trip join venture with uia gombok..huhuhu..

im keep wondering what m i doin there...is it for good or just some kind of torture..huuuhu..

since we just go there tomorrow..just a short notices n no briefing..quite disappointing actually...but what to do..just have faith for tomorrow..

hehehhe..papa sorry for making u worried n mama also..my stomachache is better now...so naxt time i'll keep in mind to drinks orange juice alittle...

...my mama...

2010-04-28T20:09:00.000-07:00

..Zalinah Bt Kasbullah..

since mothers' day is coming..its not too late for me to da person i really admire da most...

my mama..

since i was a little kid...i love to hold her hands..especially before i slept..hehehe..that time i slept with her n wawa...its like a habits ..she always smiles when i play with her finger..i dont noe why..

may be its make me feel save.. at that time papa worked as Polis Hutan , so he always went to the nation border to protect nation from enemy..

when i in primary school, ..i cant imagine how she can coop with all of us since my gap between wawa, ijoy n i wast big.as if one a year..hehehe..she never miss our breakfast...she went to school as a teacher by motorcycle since that time we dont have car...if im not miss taken, that time also shes in pregnancy of ilah..heheh..we brother n sister we went to school by track which had been provided by our camp authority...

when i was in standard 4..papa had to transfer to machang.. so its really hard for mama...since she cannot transfer as fast as papa..she had to wait for vacancy at da nearby school...she had to travel from machng to pengkalan chepa...for almost 2 months.. but she manage to handle it...of course papa some times send her to school..as for us,..da school only near da residence area so we just had to walk for 10 minutes...

then, i got offer to enter TKC...that time for da 1st time i saw mama cry..its really touch..coz i never see her cry with happiness...not to mention papa too..hehehe..when i was there mama always gave me support, n encourage me to do what i wanna do...some times when i had any occasion that need parents to attend...mama not hesitate to apply a leave just for me...as years increase not only me that mama had to look after but may brothers n sisters...who wawa was in mrsm jeli, ijoy in mrsm gerik...then edy n ilah in primary school...emy still a little...

then ..when i got into uia..her spirit make me inspire...her afford had taught me to be indepandent...n more rational in doin my decision...

that is my mother..da one i love da most in da world...

...LeaDer's wOrLd...

2010-04-26T17:30:00.000-07:00

...TraiNinG for TraiNers on cLuB ManaGemenT...

..Felda Residence Tekam, Jerantut...

for da 1st time ever i feel like my spirit of leader come again...

i miss da all days when i hold a post to the society in college...

this training program actually teach me how to be a good leader n how to handle a club n also how to make a good proposal for organizing event for da club..

im really greateful to da person who actually ask me to go there..

this training program really makes clear view on da format for proposal..

p/s: next time i will give da format for proposal writing..

...nEwLy wEds...

2010-04-26T17:27:00.000-07:00

...cOnGrTtuLaTiOn mR. & mRs. SoFi...

...nEw aDvenTuRe...

2010-04-26T17:23:00.000-07:00

...IPTA prOgRam tO Kg,Post Lebir, Gua Musang -COMRADE-...

its a one week program...huhuhu..so tiring but absolutely nothing that u can imagine...this program really test my patient n make me realized that there were a lot of things that i should thankful..honestly u cannot get these experience anywhere...

k let see...

at da 10th April i depart from home n arrived kuantan at the evening...stay for a nite...n then ...da next day, 11th April Ain, Aina, Imah n i went to IIUM Gombak to gather with the other delegates...sinve we arrived early we went to Giant Batu Cave just 'lepak' around n window shopping..hehehe..then arrrggghhh...boring...im really hate waiting...when we back to gambak campus, da person that should usher ur said we will be met at nite..then what to do just waiting n waiting n waiting..then we met Sha n K.Isma the members of COMRADE...we were given simple explanation n then we depart at about 12.30 am...all da way we slept in da bus ..but as usual i cant sleep at all...the feeling of excited, scar really mixing around..n sometime i fell like i had butterfly in my stomach...

da morning, we had a stop at RNR Gua Musang..not a strange place for me actually..had some breakfast n continue our journey....da bus eat langsat..heheheh..so we not arrived at that place like in planned...

since da kampung that we wanna go like 10km from da main road...i had to take truck n it take an hour to arrive at that kg...

our 1st day there wasnt a pleasant for the villagers..they dont like outsiders came to their kg...so we had to be very patient n really understand their sensitivity...so our 1st day was just an adaptation to da environment...there some story that i wanna share..have u heard about makan dalam talam....well in our prophet time they used to eat together in talam...so we practically have that kind of ceremony..hehehe..

then we had a adopted family...we were divided in to a group of 3 or 4 to go to 2 or 3 houses as our adopted family..yeah like i said b4 they not really welcoming us...some of them hide in da toilet...some of them close all da windows n doors..n da worst part was when some through some their belongin to us..

as days passed..we can see da changing...we invited villagers to eat with us lunch n dinner..da committee in charge cooked by their own..n their food was superb...although it only sardin based but its totally rock...

we had sports day,... surprisingly they were really njoyin our event...at nite we had video show...

we also include fardhu ain class for the children n also the elders...we perform solat berjemaah at the field...

at the 1st taaruf...we also had been divided in to few bureau for our days there..imah n i in da same bureau which is module where by we had to go to school n teach the adik2 about islam n helps with their studies...

some of them really clever who they can learn fast like normal kids but some of them not so..

so those were some activities that we make for them.. as for da committees we had morning prayer to gether n recite al-makthurah n on friday nite we had qiam...

on da last day we had closing ceremony n prize giving also ration for all adopted family...

i her by would like to thank to all COMRADE members who invited us to join together n giving us this wonderful experience...

...niTe iN rOom...

2010-04-05T10:41:00.000-07:00

..hOLiDayS beGuN...

hehehe..huhuhu..hahaha..

hehehe..i dont noe what m i doin in da campus rite now just loiterrin around...well...as for today nothing much to do ..woke up in da morning..had lunch...n went out with apin, saleha, hasna n zue..hehehe..i never been to Deli's France...im only ate french food while in college..well da food not bad...we ate until our stomach fulled..hehehe...then we went to plase where i call 'lack market'...we went there n search for some necessity ..i bought a travellin bag for Gua Musang trip..hopefully it will help me out there...

huhuu...my mom called n ask me to go home..what to do feel just like that...so tomorrow nite im goin back home n back to kuantan again b4 da trip...it such a waste actually..but i miss papa n mama...huhuhu

hahaha..its really fun when u hang out with people that u never imagine with..its too outrages when it happen to me..but its kind of fun...since apin dont have da mood to go out...so i just by my own...

well tonite outing wasnt that pleasent but its fun...just have some great leisure for sure...

xox..

...mOrninG oF Da eXam...

2010-04-03T19:31:00.000-07:00

...rumble school...facebook...yahoo mess...blog...

hehehe...today rkud exam will be held at medic exam hall...huhuhu..not much preparation...y was that..see..all those things fb, ym even this post shouldnt be here in time like this..

what to do...since last nite i hadnt have lunch so..this morning wen ate breakfast it feel different..hehehe..

well still though...rkud in my head...other friends who will goin back tonite already packed their belongin...it just me..rumbled here like rumble gurl..hehehe..not so cliche...hehehe..

all da requirement fro Gua Musang trip will be occupied tomorrow....after mama bank in da money..i dont noe y..lately im spendin too much money for unnecessary things...huhuhu..i dont really noe...may PMS..hehehe..

this afternoon paper is might be unexpected... well since dr. ibrahim type of question really unpredicted..so have to read n memorized his note n almost all the handout...

all da best to all my friends n i hehehe..(cet poyo lebih...)

xox..

...eXam mOOd...

2010-04-01T06:52:00.000-07:00

..BeLieVe iT oR nOt..

...during exam lot of mood n expression occur upon our face..sometimes da reaction is too weird...it was like looking at da drwaing that u make ...

..some with smile..some with sour faces...hehehehe..really if u dont realised it make sure u put a mirror on ur desk n glance at it for certain time..hehehehe..u will smile spontaneously...

...BioTech, LawS & EtHics...

2010-04-01T06:24:00.000-07:00

hehehe..since this subject is da most scariest one so here it goes...

Lecture 2 - mRNA processing n translation...ok lets start with mRNA processing..initial mRNA from a gene is called primary transcript or pre-mRNA. it is immature n not fully functional..pre-mRNA will under go series of modification which called mRNA processing before they when to translation process..modification includes ;
1- RNA splicing - cutting da introns n splicing the mRNA in several location to produce numeral coding sequence.
2- 5' cap - guanine base containing a methyl group is added . the structure formed plays important role in ribosome recognition of da 5' end of da mRNA molecule during translation.
3- polyadenylation - a string of adenine nucleotide around 100 - 300 nucleotides in length is added to the 3' end of da mRNA creating a poly A tail. the tail protects mRNA from degradation in da cytoplasm, increasing da stability n availibility for translation.
by following those methods, a mature mRNA leaves da nucleus n enter cytoplasm for translation process.

translation - this process involves three major components, messenger RNA (mRNA), ribosomal RNA (rRNA) n transfer RNA (tRNA). in translation process there are also three stages involve which is initiation, elongation n termination.

Initiation - small ribosomal subunits binds to 5' end of mRNA molecule by recognizing da 5'cap of mRNA.. initiation factors guides da small subunits to da mRNA..small subunits will moves along until it encounters da start codon, AUG.. da start codon will paused, small subunits wait for da correct tRNA a.k.a initiator tRNA to came along..tRNA has

..cRaCy tHiNg..

2010-03-26T09:03:00.000-07:00

...unBeaRabLe...

hehehe..something goin wrong with me today..donno..may be i always takes thing really simple..no pressure..no worries..but somw times i feel that was kind of weird..u noe..seeing my frens really struggling for da exam n i still have time for my self ..n not for those notes...

well im happy coz i had what i want today..a perfume n a novel..hehehe..mama n papa..thanx for da money..sorry i use it for buying those thing..but i really cannot help it...

...cherished..silky girl...

..mOviEs oF Da NiTe..

2010-03-24T10:58:00.000-07:00

...iS iT rEaLly reLeaSinG...

hehehe..i dont noe what m i doin for da rest of da day..but since i woke up from good sleep this evening...i started to add blog entries for my devoted novel..hehehe..not devoted ...but beloved novel which r in my collections...so u wanna se it check out this website...ainnovelmaniac.blogspot.com..

im sure u guy will be shock looked at my list of book...its not 'joubour'..but some of my madness..hehehe..i just cant stand looking at those displayed novels in book stores...

after that..i started watching movies...da first movie of da day is My Name is KHAN...really n truly dedicated those movie to all muslim n american about the truth of islam...

then i watch Adnan Sempit..hehehe..he just not sempit at all but full f emotion n never looked down upon people...i love that..hehehe...

so that was my day after protein final paper..i dont wanna talk about it bcoz i feel stupid..really stupid...huh!!!!

...pRoTeiN BioTecH...(ParT 2)

2010-03-23T08:56:00.000-07:00

...cOnTiNue...

4th lecture...precaution when handling protein...proteolytic degradation - protein broken apart by proteases that come from lysosome where by when cell disrupted lysosome breaks n release protease which can damage the other protein thus minimized the activation of protease to avoid protealysis, oxidation - sulfur group from cysteisine undergo oxidation forming disulphide bond that are not normally presence n by reducing agent like dithiothreitol or beta mercaptoethanol was added to prevent undesirable disulphide bond, dilution - protein stick to surface by reducing available activity so to prevent significant loss not store dilution solution for too long..fractional salt precipitation - method for concentrating the protein as well as crude separation from other protein..every protein has their own solubility limits bcoz solubility affected by concentration of da protein of interest, pH n temperature... column chromatography is a revolutionary event in protein separation for obtaining da pure protein...different kind of chromatography depends on size of protein, net charge, specific ligand binding properties n hydrophobicity...column chromatography has 2 type of components which are solid phase n liquid phase..basic step is that da sample is loading, washing and then elution...
gel filtration chromatography - a.k.a molecular sieve chromatography / size exclusion chromatography...stationary/solid phase separate protein based on size n shape..volume of bufer required to elute a specific protein depends mostly on molecular weight of the protein n shape play important role so elution process need to follow hydrodynamic volume...
ion exchange chromatography- charged group covalently attached to stationary phaseeither +ve / -ve...protein bind to da matrix by electrostatic interactions..this interaction depends on net charge on da protein n salt concentration of da buffer...higher net charge more sticky to da opposite matrix n higher salt concentration required to elute it from column...
cation exchange - matrix has -vely charge groups
anion exchange - matrix has +vely charge groups
liquid chromatography - hydrophobic interaction chromatography (HIC) n reverse phase chromatography (RPC)...separation that exploit the hydophobic or non- polarity properties of protein n molecule...high performance liquid chromatography - high pressure pumpng overcome the resistance to flow through column..it requires non-compressible resins n strong column which then resulting quicker than conventional gravity flow column, achieve better separation of closely similar compound, the resolving power increase with column length n powerful n versatile form of chromatography ..

5th lecture...protein electrophoresis...in electric field protein or other charge molecule will move with velocity depends on direction of the charge n inversely on its size n shape..pH is important to determined the net charge..
gel electrophoresis - carried out supporting media with pores that big enough to allow passage of macromolecule..electric charge is applied to molecule moves forward electrode opposite to their charge but slow down by gel..larger shape move slowly while small molecule moves faster..proteins in gel easy stained for detection due to the net charge n molecular weight..
discontinuous gel electrophoresis - 2 gel layer ; lower resolving gel, upper stacking gel ; buffer used to separate 2 gel layers of different ionic strength n pH.; staking gel has lower acrylamine concentration so pore size is larger..
sodium dodecyl sulfate - poly acryamide gel electrophoresis (SDS-PAGE) - a variant of electrophoresis in which the buffer contains SDS, a detergent bind to the protein... sample need treatment which are B-mercaptoethanol (no sulphide bond) n heating to ensure complete unfolding n complete separation of different polypeptide..large -ve charge resulting bound of SDS masks the native charge on the protein so all protein have essentially da same charge to mass ratio n same shape..rate of movement depends only m.w of individual polypeptide chain...protein mobility inversely proportional to da log of the mass of individual polypeptide chain...function to estimate purity, determined molecular weight of individual polypeptide subunits n purification of small amount of polypeptide for sequence analysis
isoelectric focusing - separation based on isoelectric point (PI) on charge difference..ph gradient set up first n the mixture of molecule is applied electric field is turn on n each protein moves to position of net charge at zero...
2D electrophoresis - isoelectric in 1st dimension n followed by SDS-PAGE at 90 degree to 2D..
protein primary structure determination - amino acid sequence, nucleotide sequence, amino acid residues n sequence comparison of protein...important of amino acid side chain; hemoglobin is the oxygen transport protein in blood which presence in oxy / deoxy, mutant hemoglobin are known to exist, sicle cell hemoglobin...amino acid composition- fundamental characteristics of any protein which total acid hydrolysis that consist of aqueous acid n amino acid in hydrolysate quantitated using ion exchange...
amino acid sequence determination - amino terminal residue n edman degradation...amino terminal residue (NH2) can be determined by derivatization of whole peptide or protein with either 1-fluoro-2,4-dinitrobenzene FDNB or reagent that gve fluorescence derivatives..total acid - derivation N-terminal residue , y-amino derivatives...Edman degradation - only one residue at a time from amino N-terminal can be chemically derivative, removed n identified...repeated step derivation...steps; coupling, cleavage, conversion n sequencing...problem; when proteolysis has been accomplished the peptide separated n sequenced - solution ; sequence of 2 different cleavage methods r examined for overlaps...

6th lecture...affinity chromatography...based on specific ligand binding to protein of interest ...affinity ligand covalently attach column material, ligand can include; substrate analogs, inhibitors, natural n artificial ligand, cofactor, metals, binding proteins n anythings that utilize biologically for genetically engineered protein n fusion protein...column preparation include; ligand attach to matrix, linker or spacer arms, matrix uncontaminated, covalent attachment n binding should be specific...elution - buffer containing free ligand or destabilizing binding or make it weak by change pH/ionic strength n chaotropic/ denaturing agents...common example of affinity systems ; immunoaffinity chromatography - antibody specific for protein used to purified specific protein n immobilised metal affinity column (IMAC) - fusion protein with polyHis tags, can be purified in column n imidazole group on the end of the recombinant protein bind with high affinity...

...pRoTeiN BioTecH...(ParT 1)

2010-03-23T05:44:00.000-07:00

..wHaT acTuaLly m I sTudyiNg...

1st lecture...was about protein structure..well as we already knew protein have 4 types of structure ..primarily - consist of amino acid, carboxyl group, nitrogen group, hydrogen atom and chiral carbon...two protein bind together with peptide bond and forming dihedral angle which known as torsion angles either psi / phi..da bond and angle are fairly invariant in the knowing da protein structure by Ramachandran blot...secondary - the present of alpha helix and beta sheet (parallel or anti-parallel)..tertiary - at this stage protein start to folding due to the structure of protein become tightly packed bcoz water was excluded from the interior..at this phase protein only can be stabilized mainly by hydrophobic forces but ionic interaction and hydrogen bond also play apart..protein folded forming motif which da protein r identical or unindentical more dense and form domain...quaternary - protein consist of more than one domain and becoming more complex...these domain basically bind together by disulphide bridges and were stabilised with the present of hydrogen bonding, hydrophobic effect,electrostatic interaction...

2nd lecture...we were learned about protein production for biotech...heterologous protein product by biological diversity, variety of post-translational modification and rotein expression which posibbly by bacteria, yeast, insect,and mammals or cell free system..there some critera for protein to be selected which are scale, cost, application, drug screening and therapeutic uses and antibody...it also include bacteria for expression which is commonly uses, more economical, require simpler expertises can be automated...the common bacteria used are; ecoli, pseudomonas, bacillus and rhodobacter spheroids...the challenges faced by doing all these are membrane protein is da key to processes n comprise da major drug, structural n functional very hard to produce n cytoplasmid n periplasmic volume is 30 X greater than membrane volume for typical cell..
rhodobacter - a strategy to produce membrane protein, advantage : organism can be engineered to provide coordinated synthesis of foreign membrane protein with synthesis of new membrane that can incorporated...
yeast expression system (similar ti bacteria) - transformation of yeast by integration into yeast genome, propagation as episome n as artificial chromosome..elements for transformation include ARS - autonomous replicating sequence, 2u - the 2 micron circle origin/ origin of replication, Cen - centromere..there are 3 types of yeast vector; integrative plasmid - introducing gene into yeast chromosome, centromeric plasmid - contain yeast centromere n low copy number , episomal plasmid - called 2 micron n have high copy vectors in yeast..advantages; - high yield n high productivity, chemically defined media, stable production strains, durability n lower protein production cost...product produces same as bacterial system ;- post translational modification, yeast have cellular organelles n intracelular n extracellular expression....
baculovirus expession system - infect primarily insect cell, insert up to ~20kb, save for human consumption, approved for therapeutic uses...suitable for production of eukaryotic protein n proper folding and post-translational modofication...vectors are commercially available..problem occur by baculovirus ; slow generation n protein processing not similar to human cell...
mammalian expression system - transformed of cell lines n resource...American Type Culture Collection (ATCC)..it saves the immortalised cell lines for long term production...but the cell lines will transfected with the expression construct n selected for recombinant production...common cell lines ;- chinese hamster ovary(CHO), green monkey kidney (COS), human embryonic kidney (HEM) n etc...probs occur : high cost, complicated technology n fear of potential animal viruses to human...
expression in transgenic plant - plant cultivation..since the conventional farming obtained low production..protein can target at specific stage of development...no fear for human pathogens good for pharmaceutical proteins...produce high value of protein..
transgenic animal - large scale production of eukaryotic protein..generation n characterization same like plant (need time n cost)..inheret advantage from eukaryotic protein processing..pronuclear micro injection of somatic transfer for mammary gland of cows, sheeps n goat also for transgenic chicken/egg of shorten life cycle...
cell free expression system - uses cell extract from various organisms containing ; transcription n protein components like cofactors n ATP cytosolic components...this system give advantage in terms of ; easily automated and scalable , flexibility for manipulation of condition for desired protein and possible for toxic protein..problem is the cost to develop the exact complexity of cellular system...

3rd lecture..methods for extraction protein...mechanical methods ; grinding, homogenizer or sonication or by using enzymatic method...da most common types for mechanical method are shear forces, homogenizer n french press...for enzymatic method is very gentle n specific means to disrupting the cells to release their contents..example for enzyme in used are lysozyme - bacteria cell wall, lyticase/chitinase - yeast n cellulose - plant...regularly osmotic shock been used by cytosolic outburst due to the entrance of water from out side cell into da cell...the second step is that clarification of extract...filtration n centrifugation ... third step is that protein purification...the purified must be possible in few steps n short a time..the target uses are therapeutic uses, industrial uses n structural uses...the sources of protein are eukaryotic n prokaryotic ( native; expressed constitutively by organism / recombinant; expressed from plasmid that has been transformed into host cell)..assay for protein include; colonrimetric/direct spectrophotometric - determine concentration, SDS-PAGE - determine homogeneity at each step n m.w of pure protein, enzyme assay- either disappearance of [S] / formation of [P], either one gives good spectral handle...
concentrating protein - important; low amount of enzyme, dilute form, extraction resulting loss of enzyme, easy to handle in small volume, easy assay at high concentration...concentration methods ; freeze drying - removal of water from a sample n keep under low temperature n under go sublimation , dialysis - diffusion of solutes through semi permeable membrane at different concentration of 2 solutes, salt precipitation - water soluble n their solubility as a function of ionic strength n pH of solution, ultrafiltration - pallet redissolved in low salt buffer since different protein have different distint characteristics.., etc...
purification - removes as much as contaminating protein as possible..caculate to now the efficency of the purification by specific activity X (% of yield / 100) ...protein characterization include molecular weight which can be determined by electrophoresis (SDS-PAGE), gel filtration n ultracentrifugation , isoelectric point ~ isoelectric focusing , spectroscopic propertieslike uv visible spectroscopy, absorbance spectroscopy, fluorescence spectroscopy, circular dichroism (CD) spectroscopy n NMR spectroscopy, determination of primary structure by inference n chemical method and lastly complete 3D structure by x-ray difraction n NMR...

..sEm 2..2009/2010..

2010-03-21T22:21:00.000-07:00

..FiNaL eXaM ScHeDuLe..

# protein Biotech - wed, 24th march #
# Halal & haram - mon, 29th march #
# enzymology - tues, 30th march #
# Biotech, Laws & Ethics - thurs, 1st apr #
# basic Genetic Engineering - sat, 3rd apr #
# philosophy of science - sun, 4th apr #

..kOs faMiLy dAy 2010..

2010-03-21T03:35:00.000-07:00

..MaGenTa..

...the family of magenta...

it such a waste i didnt manage to join them together...huhuhu..this valueable time may not be happen again since my beloved senior wont be here for next year..huhuhuh...

...LiGhT NiTe..

2010-03-19T11:17:00.000-07:00

...sOo cOoL n HaPpy...

actually da main objective i went out this evening was goin to visit bear bcoz she was admitted yesterday...due to high blood pressure..i was really shocked when i 1st heard it..coz i thought that i heard her voice in the evening when i was on da way to badminton tournament..so rite now she is ok..n discharged just now...

special dedication to bear, ...bear take care ok...

after that fara n i went to megamall..we went to book festival organised by Popular book store..hehehe..as usually im only interested in novels..hehehehe...fara looked so motherly..she bought exercise books for her brother n her cousin who will be takin UPSR this year..

then we went to TC..hehehe..its been so long..since it was raining lightly in da beginning...we went to TEratak..still remember...da one with lots n lots of memories....yeah..i met abg.ghani n k.sal...we had dinner n exchange story with them...

the rain stopped n we walk by the sea...its so cold n windy...how can i describe...i bums into amir n najmi..hehehe..they only sit by the sea...

time running very fast when u feel happy n cherish the moment...midnite coming so we dont want any argue from pak guard fara drove as fast as she can..

i feel so easy n have fun...since with all pressure by doin bge report which not done yet...

but its worth it...

...BioTech GaLaniTe...

2010-03-18T09:01:00.000-07:00

..pOsTmOrTem...

i was frust...

y bcoz da one who should be talk / lecture / scold didnt came at all..

they had some sort of event..but then what to do...

selamat la..daripada kene goreng..

well..well..well..
1st n for most it was good so that the committees n myyself can improved our self in da up coming program...

we discuss the problems and solution that occured during our function which is Biotech Galanite..heehehehe...

congratulation all committees and guests who come to our function n make it happened...

lots of things we can learn form this like how to handle each bureaus and soft some minor misunderstanding....

we got good feedback n support n a request to do it again each 2 months..hehehehe..we were really honored... thanx to all...

...KOS BadMinTon TourNamenT (dUo)...

2010-03-17T00:20:00.000-07:00

...JusT LucKy or qAda'&qAdaR..

hehehe...its nice to get involved in spot tournament or carnival...

so lis n i entered Kos Badminton Tournament for pair it was da 1st...hehehe..at first we just entered for fun..but at the end it turn up like wanna be the winner..

so we just got 4th place...da champion were alia n yaya...1st runner up aina n hazimah...2nd runner up were anis n zufika...it was so fun n tremendous..

at first we were divide into 2 group which we were playing in league...then we got reunner up..so our next match, we met aina n hazimah..hehehe we lost...the for last match we met anis n zufika...we lost again...

but overall we had so much fun n it helped me to relax n fulfill my leisure time instead of wathing videos...hehehe...

*cannot wait for KOS Family Day this Sunday..yeeepeee..*

...BioTecHnoLoGy StuDenTs...

2010-03-16T23:50:00.000-07:00

...BioTecH GaLaNiTe 2010...

great event n great show..but intro gimmick didn't work out..huhuhu so sad...

last Monday nite we da 2nd n freshies of biotech held a biotech galanite as our appreciation to our beloved 4th year senoirs who will be left us for new life..

this function was held by da theme "ala kampung"..n da decoration did by me..after all...da talent n gift by Him is so valuable although the field that im takin rite now was not da same as art..

hehehe...for da 1st time i wore kebaya hehehe.. i guess no body realised it since i was like chipsmore..ehhee..da function run smoothly although we had difficuties with PA System...but alhamdulillah with all support n cooperation was worth it...

thanz to abe, shahir n hasne for being da mc n make our program happening...hehhehehe...all so to our specially guest dr.tg haziyamin, dr.jalal, dr.raj n our beloved k.siti n not to forget sis fiza our lab demo..hehehe it was nice n thanx for spending some time with us..hehhehehe..'i dont noe y m i here today but its a good thing that i can meet all of u'...its dr.tg said.at da beginning of his speech..hehehehe..well its wort it though..with minang cuisine n air kelapa pandan originally from its shell...

da performance was awesome n very enjoyable...da 1st year only gives slide show...well since they are not many...its ok...da 2nd n 3rd year they combined together...hehehe...rasa sayang song really catchy n lawak giler babe!!!!...of course da performance from da 4th year as expected really smart n i really love it...they came out with a video clip.. i was like whao!!! cool dude...ehehehe...

after hardworking...we manage to organized this function..we learnt from mistakes... so in future we never do it again n beware of all those probs...

till then..

*what m i doing during my 1st year...????*

...Bio TecH YouTh CamP...

2010-03-16T22:05:00.000-07:00

...mEeTinG...mEeTinG...LaTa BeLaTan...

..hehehhe..although the program had passed...im sort of excited to spilled out...

but 1st about the meeting...
hehehhe..trip was the 1st one been held for our batch..it kind of leisure n relaxing activities for us..n in da same time we will strengthen our bond n make up our friendship..at da meeting we can see credibility of each one of da committee who is my friend...u noe initial judgment could be not true at all...

so it comes to da real program...

i went home at first...n wait for them there at Lata Belatan..,huhu it such a long hour that my sister n i soaked in the water..hhehehhe...the water fall is cool...no really cool..arrggggghh..u cant imagine how i felt...

hehehe..then when they arrived i had to leaved mama n ilah...papa, emi n ali will came at the evening...

after we gathered, da 1st activity that took place was explorace.. hehhehe..since da place was new we had to climb the rock n dive in da water...da 1st check point we had to search few words or da game was cross puzzle...2nd check point is fill up water into a bottle n then play hoollla hhooop...hehehehe...da last check point we had to get a flag..which we required to dive n swim towards it..finally our group that consist of syuk, imad, aman, enie n i...we got the 1st place though..hehehehe....

da nite show was awesome..hehehe..im da one who was da mc..hehehe.it never happend before...seriously...da performance done by all group was superb...hehehehe...there was also award giving for selected categories....so here came da winner...

da next morning, we got jungle tracking..huhuhu..it was so hard for me since i got no stamina at all...hehehe..it was such a long way...we walked for 2 hours...climb up and down..follow water fall alley..n da best part was crossing over the molt ..eeewwwhhh...it da most hardest paft..so im leading the way of course pak ajis was da one who led us...hehehe..

then we had a santai time..fro an hour and then we had to pack back...so bubye lata belatan with all sweet memories n nice moment together...

heehehhe..
nonono..my post not finished yet..

so on da way back we stop at a stall for buying keropok lekor hehehe..this food really famous n of course its delicious n just light beverage...we also took some pics since da stall is opposite the ocean..what a nice view..=)..

n then we stop at kuala terengganu coz we wanna go to pasar payang..for those who never reach this place was kind of excited n fascinating..not bcoz of da food n da goodies...but da price was too cheap n very unexpected...hehhehee...hire u can see my friend who love shopping..hehehehe..came with empty hand but back with full hand...

so we arrived late at nite...

hopefully next time we will have this kind of trip again...

...sorry...

2010-03-15T10:34:00.000-07:00

..im just me n myself..

after all pains and ignorence..i just can wait..may not like da vocano all over da world which were keep goin to vomit their own larvar....

so..
what can i do then..
im just too tired for all this kind of things...

for those related 1000 of apologize from me...
im not prefect..im just me n myself..

n i noe..im standing on earth n know what i wish to now...

..at last...

2010-03-12T01:43:00.000-08:00

...its good ..

i feel good that my tenet is in good..
but lots of thing to do..

.sHoOT..lame nyer..

2010-03-01T00:31:00.000-08:00

..sTorY...sTorY...sTorY...

huhuhu..hello..long time huh..

hehehe.i got lot of stories to tell u all..wait for them n bear with me k..

*meeting lata belatan

*lata belatan

*home sweet home

*unforgettable news*

human nowaday sooo mean

*im in pain

those are da titles of stories which i will write soon..wait n read later k..

p/s: huhuhu rite now tngah bertabah sakit paha..muscle teared coz of jungle tracking last weekend..

...days of my life...

2010-02-18T06:10:00.000-08:00

...diaries...

this entry is special becoz its the begining of the story from my heart...hopefully i can share some of my feeling with u...

my birthday...what can i say...

no papa n mama plus bros n sys...

no lover..coz to far away..huhu...

no present but after 1 n 3 days i got...

no celebration..its ok may be next time...

no cakes....its ok it will reduce my weight....

...mY LiFe...

2010-02-13T11:53:00.001-08:00

22th birthday....

...eNzYmOLoGy LaB..

2010-02-04T04:06:00.000-08:00

..MaKinG ChEesE..

as simple as eat it but then arrrgggghhh....tiring...

today at enzymolgy lab we were requiered to make cheese...

weelll...ladies n gentlements today we were going to make instant cheese...

its actually experiment on which type of milk yogurt will get the highest amount of cheese production...hehehe...

1st of all, incubate 7 cup of milk at cool rum for various hours....then... leave it in hot rum until all milk yogurt at 32 degree celcius n then pun 5 drops of renin enzyme in to it...do not stir but wait for 30 minutes.....

after that, we can see da milk coagulate...

then we seives them using cheese cloth to get the cheese...

here we go da cheese...

attention: the cheese from this experiment cannot be eaten since the milk yogurt had been contaminated...ahaks~~~

...BeGiniKaH KeHiDuPan....

2010-02-03T00:15:00.000-08:00

...HanYa DIA TaHu...

hidup ni penuh dgn kejutan...kate org setiap yg berlaku ad hikmah disebaliknye...

betul kot...

gembira... sedih... marah ..penat...putus asa...buang masa....mcm2 lg...sume nye ade... mcm dalam drama...hehehe....tp realitinye....kite kene tanggung sendiri..baik dan buruk....kene telah sampai kite rase mcm nak muntah balik...

ade mase jugak kite cemburu ngan org lain .... contohnye....nape aku dapt markah sikit die dapat byk....

ade jugak masenye kite tuduh org tanpa perikse....contohnye...ala die dapat markah tinggi sebb tgk notes...

ade jugak yg suke buka kedai kopi...contohnye..ha ah die tgk note mentang2 levturer x nampak , bkn sekali tp byk kali, org mcm tu memang la suke buat bende yg x elok, x ikhlas, x jujur.....

betul ke kite boleh nilai keikhlasan n kejujuran org....

kalo dari segi mata kasar boleh la kot...tp dalaman...mane kite tahu..nak2 plak kalo org tu ade niat lain bak kate org ade udang disebalik mee....

Ya tuhan, hanya pada mu aku berserah, tunjukan lah aku jalan yg diredhai mu...sesungguhnye aku takut untuk masuk ke neraka mu n aku x layak untuk masuk ke syurga mu...

...miD TeRm bReak...

2010-02-01T17:40:00.000-08:00

...16th InTerNaTiOnaL TaEk wAn dO WTF...

this mid term was owesome...hehehe..spending 5 days at home made me feel release n relax...with all unwwanted scenes...u noe..those fake faces that try to comfort others...

thanx mama n papa...without u both im alone...

last friday, i went to uia gombak for teak wan do tournament...we left uia kuantan at 3 o'clock...only k.fahima,salam,apiz,akmal n i went ther by van...hehehe..after all van is better than the bus...

at first all of us just make our own stuff like me listen to da mp4 n reading my new novel..hehehe...another new one...u noe...im da one who single n of course bro.driver..

hehehe..

k.fahima with salam n apiz with akmal..both are so sweet for each other...

hehehe...well what to do..

so we arrived about 6.30 pm n da bro.driver dropped us at female sports complex...we registered n then had dinner in da operating room..huhu..sadly we r like "dianak tirikan" dont miss judge this statement...its only a joke!!!.

then we led to our hostel at mahallah salahuddin al-ayyubi...OMG jauh gell!!...we had to walk all da way...da mak guard gave us da direction for the car driveway..so like we r new n just follow it..we were wondering if there is shortcut...

after a LONG journey...we arrived...it was like half an hour walking....huh...so tiring n exhausted...too bad for us...

then cma arrived...we settled down a bit..n went for the briefing as commmittee (committee 'bidan terjun')....hehehewhile da boys they went out to bought some necessity...confirm they forgot to bring along...

may be its been an habit when i was in new place da 1st nite surely cannot sleep...after pushing so hard finally i was able to sleep for 1 n half hours..huhuhu

30th january

da big day has come...the tournament went well but the co-worker wasn't enough...same person do 2 to 3 jobs..seriously penat gell...

all fighters from kuantan gave their best to win..good job guys..although we cannot make it to final but our effort really paid..m i rite...

that da the category was varsity which about 10 universities took place in this tournament...gongrates to all winners....hope to c u again next time...ok...

31st january

that day was open category...the participations were not as much as varsity...so every thing goin smoothly but still some part had to take seriously on next tournament...

we went back kuantan at 7.30 pm...all r starving...bro.driver dropped us at temerloh R&R...so we ate n had solat...on da way back we managed to buy some oranges as u noe chinise new year is coming so many stalls open...

we arrived uia kuantan about 12 midnite...argghhh..i was sleepy...

to be con't..........

...wHaT a Day!!..

2010-01-27T11:59:00.000-08:00

..LasT NiTe aT HoMe...

hehehe...since da 1st day im home..tonite is da 1st time i went out side of da house...hehehe...thanx papa for bringing me n ilah to mcD..hehehe....

i donno why when im home its like im was freezed in side here....

i cant move..im just like being at home...do house work...n lepak2...although nobody here,,,

..iM tHiNkiNg oF...

2010-01-26T12:30:00.000-08:00

..mY fUtUrE...

how it gonnna be...

m i still at his level or not...

honestly i cannot control my own potential...

seriously..

sometimes...

i wanna be optimistic..

but..

some times i feel so down n humble...

its like every nite im thinkin of it...

hopefully HE understand my prays...

xox

...mOmEnT aT hOmE...

2010-01-25T08:57:00.000-08:00

...cOmpLemEnTaRy tEacHeR (cTEACHER)...

ahaks~..

hehehe...every time or every year i will help my mama to make her rancangan tahunan n plan aktivity for da whole year..hehehe..its kind of fun..n evry time i do it.it make me thing that teachers push themselves to think about activiti for the school..while me as student ..i never plan any thing to do through out da sem except for da takwin that been given to us from anr..

heheh..

kind of pathethics...

its ike i cannot conduct my self...

so for this year..

i will plan my life..hehehe..

hope fully all of them will work up..

wish me luck k...

xox..

...mOmEnT aT hOmE...

2010-01-23T09:08:00.000-08:00

...iM hOmE aGaiN...

ehehe...im home again....

papa had started nagging at me since last week...huhu..what to do ..being home make me feel very comfortable...i still can see that sadness in mama's eyes...sense of full regrades...

as for me..im ok..but still...she's gone..life must go on..

next 2 weeks i have 3 mid term starting with halal & haram....then basic genetic engineering and then enzymology.....

...mE, mYsELf & i....

2010-01-21T13:16:00.000-08:00

...far apart...

a gap make us separate...that gap make us feel uneasy when we r together...that same gap make us feel weird when we do tigs together...

why this gap appeared in da 1st place...who built it like a strong wall that isolate us from one another like we never be bonded again...who should be point for build up this wall...who...how was it built...did it necessary...

to be honest..nobody want to break da bond...it just it not so tight like covalent bond may be just like Van Der Waals interaction....it can be tight again when da environment is good n suitable to make adjustment....

it will be normal again....its just a matter of time....

once never turn to another if we still have that bond...but y did it accuse with too many scandals or inhibitors that make it hard to be normal again...

my advice ...if u want this gap eliminated u must try by ur self...approach the selectable site n try to communicate with it either it will accept or not...

...HaNya Dia TaHu..

2010-01-21T10:12:00.000-08:00

...redha dgn ketentuanNya...

...malam ini merupakan mlm ketiga bacaan tahlil...

...saudara mara masih berkumpul...hari ini mungkin dari terakhir untuk bersama....walaupun ain tiada bersama ...tp suasana nya jelas terasa dari nada suara mama dan papa...

..sebaik sj bacaan selesai...sedikit jamuan makn di adakn sebagi tanda ucapan pada ahli suarau dan jiran tetangga yg hadir sama....

...sekarang mama dan papa dalam perjalanan pulang ...semoga perjalan mereka lancang...ain dapat jangkakan perasan mama...sungguh mama pasti berat untuk tinggalkan kg halamannya...

..namun apekn daya...esok papa kerja...hidup perlu diteruskan....semoga mama tabah begitu juga dgn ahli keluarga yg lain...

...HaNya Dia TaHu..

2010-01-21T08:56:00.000-08:00

...kehidupan ini memang sukar untuk dijangkakan...

betul kata org hidup ini pernuh dengan kejutan...ade kejutan yg menggembirakan dan ada pula yg menyedihkan...

tanggal 18 january 2010 bersamaan 2 safar 14 31hijrah...wan, armarhumah hjh naesah bt manijo telah selamat kembali ke rahmatuallah....

tidak banyak kenangan ain bersama arwah...

tapi ain pernah merasa hidup sekejap bersama wan...waktu tu usia ain lebih kurang 4 tahun..ain tinggal sekejap bersama wan...wawa mase tu br nak belajar naik basikal...hehehe...

arwah suke bawak kami jln2....die selalu belikan jajan...pernah ade sekali tu berebut nak amek jajan dari tangan arwah...tapi wan x hesah...die cakap "jgn berebut"...arwah selalu naik basikal tua..tapi basikal tu dah x de .... dah tertimbus dek rumah tua yg da roboh....sayang rumah kayu yg atuk buat da x de....rumah tu cantik...besar...yg paling ain ingat sereambinye ade ukiran kerawang yg cantik..mama cakap tu atuk sendiri yg buat...

walau pun x sempat merasa kasih sayaang atuk, tapi ain sempat bermanje ngan arwah atuk itam...die baik sgt..atuk itam pandai ubat org...mase ain kene demam campak dulu atuk itam yg buatkan penawar gune air kelapa muda...

kenangan mase kecik memang x dapat di lupa..walau pun x banyak tapi alhadulillah ain dapat ingat sikit...

sebaik saje dapat tahu arwah wan da x de... ain x th nak ckap ape...yg cume ain ingt mama...mcm mane la .... dalam mase yg sama ain teringat mase arwah ade kat umh kami di kelantan....kami dapat berbual2 walaupun x lame sbb mase tu sibuk dgn urusan ijoy nak ke kanada...tapi nasib baik emi yg selalu layan wan...ain hanya sempat ade ngan wan 4 hari je...walau pun pendengaran arwah x berapa baik ... kami selalu berbual kosong..kadang2 wan lupa nama kami...kami anggap tu cuma anggap tu gurauan wan...

wan selalu mengadu sakit kepala...kdg2 kami gilir2 urut kepala wan paling tidak pun sapukn minyak angin...wan selalu jln terketar2.. pada mula nya kami ingt wan saja buat2....tapi bile ain tanya org...tu symptom awal utuk parkinson...tp bila setiap kali pergi klinik atau hospital doktor hanya bagi th wan ade sakit urat, migrain...

wan suka duduk sorg kat umh die...arwah x berapa selesa (agaknye) duduk di rumah anak2....sebb tu wan selalu ckap nak balik....walau pun baru je sampai...

disebbkn tu...wan meninggal tanpa ade sorg pun yg menemani die...ain terkilan...sedih sgt..wan pergi tanpa kami semua th...semua adik beradik mama termasuk mama sendiri salah kn diri masing2...sapa sangka wan akan pergi secepat ini...

malam tu mama n papa terus bertolak dari rumah dan amek ain di hostel...malangnye kami sampai sebaik saja lepas wan dimandikn..mama terkilan sbb die x sempat nak laksanakan tugasnye yg terakhir sebagai anak pada wan...mam hampir rebah sebaik shaja lihat wjah arwah...ain plak hanya air mata yg mengalir..mama perlukan org untuk ade di sebelahnye...

sebaik sahaja dikafankan ....pak long, pak ngah, pak lang, mama, pak ndak, acik dan ucu bergilir2 mencium arwah dan menatap wajah beliau...ain hanya mampu lihat...x sampai hati nak biarkan arwah pergi..rasa mcm baru semalam naik basikal dgn arwah..jln2 seliling kg...arwah tolakkan basikal tua sedangkan ain dan wawa duduk je...hampir semua sepupu kami hadir semasa arwah di kafankan ... ade jugak yg sampai selepas arwah di kebumikn...

sewaktu arwah di kebumikan...papa sam2 bantu mengambus tanah...talkin dibaca..dgn nada sendu..x kurang juga esakan kecil mama sebaik saja nama wan di sebut...

wan da pergi meninggalkan kami...

buat pertama kalinya perjumpaan keluarga diadakan...segala amanah bg pemegang rumah dan sejumlah wang telah diamanahkn pada pemegang amanah...pada masa yg sama...bicara hati ke hati secara terbuka pada semua ahli keluarga...yg jauh didekatkn yg dekat dieratkan...kami sepakat untuk buang yg keruh dan ambil yg jernih....x kurang juga air mata yg mengalir luahan hati saudara mara yg terkilan dan sesal atas kematian arwah...keikhlasan juga jelas terpancar walaupun rasa kurg senang sesetgh pihak ...namun, prubahan yg di lakukan untuk kebaikan masa depan...

pada mlm pertama bacaan tahlil rasa sayu menyusup di hati...rasa seperti kekurangan sesuatu...alhamdullillah segalanya berjalan lancar...malangnya ain terpaksa pulang dulu ade tangungjawab yg perlu di laksanakn...

p/s: bagi rakan2 yg tidak tahu akan berita ini , ain menyusun jari memohon ampun...perkara yg berlaku di luar jangkaan...bukn nak menjauhkn diri tp keadaan diri yg terkejut dgn berita ini...maaf bukan niat ain untuk tidak menyebarkan...ain harap kalian faham dan dapt memaafkn ain...di sini ain juga memohon aindai kata kalian membaca post ini..sedekah kan lah al-fatihah kepada arwah wan..semoga Allah menenpatkn beliau dikalangan para muslimin dan anbia' serta menjauhi dari azab neraka...Amin...Al-fatihah....